Kristy -I hate to say this but I'm glad you feel like this too. I am back to feeling angry all the time and wishing my husband would leave or die or something. I know it's not normal to feel like this, but I thought it was too late to be ppd. He won't let me take meds for it anyway - he thinks it's all BS. Someone at work just told me this morning she thinks I should call my doctor.

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I don't remember the time 'definition' for PPD, but I don't think 4 months is too late for it to qualify.

Regardless of PPD or not, you are right it's nor normal or healthy to feel like that, and PPD or no PPD, calling a doc is a good idea.

I'm sorry y'all are feeling so bad.

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Kelly - Sorry to say but you DH is wrong and you are in charge of your body. No it is not too late to call your doctor. If you and your doctor think meds are the way to go. Then that is your choice. Also make sure you are getting enough Omega3. Call call call and just go to see what the doctor says. If you were not a angry person before baby then there must be a issue.

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Kelly, maybe you should have your thyroid checked. Postpartum thyroiditis is pretty common and can cause cold intolerance, hair loss, depression, mood swings, dry skin, sex loss etc. I don't know if that is wrong with me but my doctor seems to blame it on that since my thyroid level is out of whack. I just can't imagine waiting 6 more weeks and feeling like this. I agree with Laura, if you need a pill to make yourself feel better dh should support you and if not screw him and tell him it is birth control or something. P.S. I am glad I am not the only one feeling this way either. Some days I just wish I could pack up a run away

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First of all I want to say all of your babies are beautiful and I hope you all are feeling better soon! Eventhough, I don't know anything about PPD, (trying for a long time) I do think the hormonal inbalances can cause serious havoc on your mental health!! I'm on synthetic hormone (Clomid) overload trying to have a baby and I'm just like you all crying and carrying on for no apparent reason!! I thought once I got preg. I would be satisfied and all would be well...hmmm I guess I better rethink this! Seriously, I hope you can find a good balance with your DHs and babies. Times are sure to get better...like when you can sleep through the night!!

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kelly- I agree with others that you should talk with your doctor, maybe have your thyroid checked. He may find something out of whack with it. If not he can tell you if it is PPD. You need to feel well to be a good wife and mother. Hopefully you DH can realize that. Your doing great! Your taking care of everything and everyone and working. WOW.

kedney- I hope you find relief soon. I'm so sorry to hear you feel that way. You are not the only one. There are days lately, I think I'm gonna blow. This morning, I was a mess. I wanted to just lock the door and never come out.
Hang in there, your doing great.

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Ethan is 2 now! Where did my baby go?

Kelly and Kristy~ How are you guys? (((BIG HUGS)))

Kristy~ I agree with you, you shouldn't have to feel that way for 6 more weeks. That's just a load of crap. Have you tried looking for another dr?

Kelly~ I'm with Laura, call your dr! Listen to me, giving advice when everyone is telling me to call mine and I'm still putting it off. I'm still being a big cry baby. I LOVE my little girl, I'm just so over emotional. Grrr.....

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I suffered from ppd with my first baby...and was too afraid to do anything about it. It wasnt until DD was 2 that i started feeling a little better. I worked with a naturopath for about a year. Her belief was that PPD was due to the drop in progesterone after pregnancy. Our bodies go from having about 400 times the amount we have when we are not pregnant, to just about none at all. You can use a natural progesterone cream, no side effects, and see if it helps. I have had friends use it for PPD and within about a week or two were feeling normal again. I am starting with symptoms again, and will probably start up with it soon. I hope you feel better soon....i know how difficult it is. i always felt so guilty....theres no need to suffer through it.

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Lynn - thanks for posting that - I will ask the dr. a/b it on Friday.

Kristy - I'll also ask a/b the thyroid

Jenna - I'm feeling good yesterday and today, thanks for asking. When I go to the dr. I'll probably be like "Well, now I'm fine but I was crazy last week."

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Jenna, thanks for the hugs. This is a new doctor. The last one was a male and I didn't feel comfortable talking to him so I went to a woman. I think I will call back tomorrow. Tonight I was making dinner and I don't know what happened but my meatloaf tasted funny and smelled weird and dh was like "it's okay we will just cook some chicken nuggets' and I flew off the deep end. I had made meatloaf, beans, hush puppies and mashed potatoes and it wouldn't got with chicken nuggets. I gave him Jack and said you deal with it I am going to bed. I went and cried for awhile and then came back down stairs to help Alex with his homework (which he forgot half of it at school again). Ugh, I am to the boiling point ALL the time. This is so not like me.

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Aww Kristy, I'm sorry! If it makes you feel any better, that sounds like a DANG good dinner. I would have eaten it! Dh and I were both so tired last night that we went to Little Caesars and got a pizza and crazy bread. Not the best dinner in the world, but cheap at least. I'm glad you'll be seeing a female dr. No man could ever truly understand!

Kelly~ Glad you've felt better the last few days. So have I, but I think that's because Dh has been home so I've had some help. I don't know how people ever get things done. I keep feeling like I should have energy enough to shower, clean the house and care for my baby, but all I can seem to do is take care of my baby. I'm lucky if I brush my teeth when Dh isn't home. Tell me that you get some energy back, because I'm dying here!

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Jenna - For the past 2 weeks I have felt like I have it more together. I can cook dinner and get some cleaning done during the week. Most happens when DH is home. Sure at 3 weeks I was venturing out to parent child class but that was about it. It will get better. It is amazing the one thing I didn't count on was how hard it is to get anything done.

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I'm starting to wonder if I may have a touch of PPD after all. I am really dreading work. To the point where I am crying just thinking about it, and I start to get all panic-y when I think of what I will have to "re-learn" after being gone so long. This is going to be a hard transition.

Mere - I think anyone would have a hard time going back to work. I would be crying too. I hope your first day isn't too hard. Everyone on here that works says it will get easier for you. Give Katie some kisses.

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Mere, sorry you are having a rough time with going back to work. Is there anyway you could go back part-time? I felt the same way when I had to go back to work. Now after 5 days at home with 3 kids I am ready for my 2 days at work

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Kristy, I am on 50mg of Zoloft and my doc and the phamacist say it is fine with BFing. I also looked on Kellymom and they said it was fine. I was very irrational before, but not so much depressed perse. I was sooo afraid of something happening to the baby I wouldnt let her out of my sight. I was like that with both of the other girls, it is a pretty dark place. On the meds I am still overly cautiuos but I am not a freak about things

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Mere~ I'm really starting to wonder if i have PPD. I've literally bawled almost all day today. My baby screamed all night long and has now screamed all day long. I'm the exact opposite of you right now...I just told Dh that I already want to go back to work because it's so much easier! What kind of a mom says that? I'm a terrible mother. I swear I love her, I just want her to stop crying and go to sleep for me. And I'd love to stop bawling.

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Jenna, sweetheart, in the immortal words of Dr. Phil "If you want to see someone on the brink of psychosis, look at someone suffering from sleep deprivation."

You are tired. You are recouperating from a physically exhausting experience. You are doing fine honey. You can love someone more than life itself and still need a break from them. No matter how big or small. Get some naps honey. Forget housework and dinner. Just nap (or rest with your eyes closed) with her for a while. You WILL feel better.

If you need to, put her in her crib, make sure she is 100% safe, crying or not, and go sit outside in the fresh air for a couple minutes. Take some deep breaths. Drink a big glass of ice water and put some cucumbers on your eyes. Go take her and lay in the bath, both of you. Put a towel or bath pillow behind your head so you can lean back. You're NOT a bad mother for feeling like you need a break.

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Jenna - What Steph said. Get some sleep when you can. Don't worry about the house. When do you go to your doctor again? You could just call them up and ask if they think you should come in.

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Jenna-hang in there! It will get better. What kind of crying/screaming is going on? Have you read the reflux/GERD thread? You are great mom! You need some sleep. I agree 100% with what Steph said.

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