Karen -Thanks!!

I took Alyssa out for another 1.5 hr walk yesterday( so almost 5 hrs all day walking). I did over 16,000 steps yesterday too! Time to get in the shower and get my but out before we have to be at our Mothers day at the IL's at 3pm.

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I weighed again this morning...seems to be a downward trend! My goal is to do good this weekend (ok if I don't do GREAT), but do GREAT all week atleast till Thursday's wiegh in, THEN I may have a little sesame chicken. I did a sweet and sour chicken last night that was low cal, but I've been wanting some sesame for days now...anyone have a good recipe? I'd probably be better off just going to the chinese joint!!!

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Hey girls

Well I thought I would check in before I grab some grub...lol

Have a Great Day Ladies!!!!

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Cassie - That is great!! I would also think making the SC yourself would be better for you since I believe all chinese food has TONS of sodium in it.

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Tammy~ Look at your go! I can't believe you got out and walked so much! The weight will be MELTING off of you! YAY!

Karen~ It seems like you and I have similar problems. I can workout every day, but man when I see those sweets I want them ALL!!! I really have to be very focussed to lose weight. This week I have had NO focus. I see yummy things and they are IN MY MOUTH! Next week will have to be better....although AF is due in a week so it may be interesting.

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Karen, you're nuts. Absolutely nuts.

Pictures will be taken tomorrow. And downloaded this time. I have it set up to go to Gail's tomorrow and either she or her sister will play photographer. I actually think I might wear what I have on today, cause I look fabulous. I was posing in the bathroom mirror this morning, imagining picture poses for y'all.

I think I'll stick with the 8 pushups for a little while. I actually feel just the tiniest bit of soreness, mostly in my pectoral area, so I need to stay put until that isn't happening, then I'll go up another. Probably a week. Hopefully, toning my pec's up will pick my boobs up a little too!

Time to get back on the horse for me. I've been 'bad' by my standards for the past two weeks, for myriad reasons, blah blah blah. BUT, I'm going to go do a nice grocery shopping trip tomorrow, and I can get myself all set up to get back on track, building Daniel into the plan. I have to plan some meals in my head a bit. Mostly where I slip up is if I am unprepared to make myself lunch the night before to take to work. Also, if I'm really down or tired, I might have fast food at night. We talked last night about the getting me more sleep thing. We've been talking about it for several years (he has a little insomnia, a little waking-up problem from back pain, a little nightmare problem, and a BIG bad habit problem), and he ends up keeping me up late at night. Not that he is jumping up and down on the bed; he'd be perfectly happy for me to go off to sleepy-land and stay up to watch tv. BUT, I can't do it that way. #1, it's important to me for us to go to bed together most of the time. #2, he can't be trusted to be responsible to get to bed...before he knows it, suddenly, four hours will have gone by. #3, if he's in a bad way meds-wise, lack of sleep is a HUGE part of the problem; I think a bigger problem than the meds, actually. #4 Most of the time, I can't go to sleep if he's awake in another part of the house. Either I can hear the tv (my stupid bat ears) or I can't settle cause he's not there, or I'm worried that he's not going to come to bed, or I'll never sleep soundly, and wake up to go try and drag him to bed every 45 minutes, or whatever. ANYWAY, so he's been BETTER in the past handful of nights, we've been getting to bed by 1am (we get up at 8am to get us both to work). BUT, when he wakes in the middle of the night, and then if I do and start 'babysitting' him to get him back to bed...ugh. BUT, 1am is better then 3am, which is how it could be before. And last night, we actually BOTH got in bed, going to sleep at midnight (maybe a few minutes after). Major progress. Thank the Lord, I may have finally gotten through that thick skull... I have a problem sleeping, and whether he likes it or not, he helps me sleep. I told him this morning to look at the difference in me, how I don't go psycho if I get annoyed or if we're running late, and isn't Stephanie-not-going-psycho worth more than looking at David Letterman's pretty face? OMG, I so hope that this is the beginning of working toward getting me what I need at night. It's been SUCH a strain for the past few years. And I want him to know what it feels like to be more rested. I think it will absolutely help his level of chronic pain and basic psychological outlook, even though he's cranky cause he feels like something is being taken away from him (alone time with late night talk shows, and the tv in general). So...we'll see. Oh, I'm hoping. I want to believe so much that we're going to move in an upward motion; I want to be able to trust him...

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Steph I feel like I can HEAR you when you type. Like I sense when you sigh or roll your eyes. So weird how I think I know what yall talk like. Well I sort of DO know what you sound like since you left me a message. Oh and by the way you said I didn't sound like you thought...Why way to southern? hahahahahahah

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OMG, EXACTLY, I had no idea you had that accent! That's too funny. Sweetie, are you hearing voices again?

I know, I think you always end up with some preconceived notion of what people sound like when you 'talk' to them a lot. Then you actually SPEAK to one, and your brain explodes. LOL!

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I'm having another snickers and Mt. Dew craving. And I smell like burned cookies. I went to Suway for lunch, and the girl had burned cookies, so now I can't get the scent off my shirt or out of my nose!!!

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Steph~ I went to subway for lunch, too! Turkey sandwich on wheat bread with tons of veggies! Yum!! Oooh, cookies.....

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I picture Christie as Southern too not sure why. It is funny. I lived out West for awhile and they were like WHERE are YOU from. hahahah They would get me to say certain things so they could laugh at me.

STEPH go ahead and have the Mt Dew and candy bar. If not it will just get worse. Looking forward to the pics. Maybe I will get dh to take some of me tomorrow for Mother's day. I have NO idea what to wear. I meant to go buy a bra today and time got away so that means whatever I wear has to hide the dumb sports bra. That won't be easy. I hate when I have something important and forget.

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I just ate two double stuff oreo's!!! And they were GOOD!

Now I need to go get on the treadmill and work them off.

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Update on my marriage: Things have made a corner for me. I have forgiven him. I even gave him a quick peck on the lips and told him I loved him for the first time since all the crap happend. Thank you for all of your prayers and support.

I weighed again today and weighed 219.6 so it is 5.6lbs lost so far. I will reweigh on Monday and change my ticker at that point.

We slept til noonish so no bkfast for me.

Lunch- ummmmm nothing. I had two tortillas with a little bit of butter and a bottle of water. Hmmmm I guess I didn't think about it. We were watching movies.

Dinner- WW rice with my onion mix and Salmon broiled. I was going to go eat Taco Bell and only eat 1 burrito, but looked nutrition facts up online and was appalled. No wonder Americans are so dang fat. So, I gave in and cooked at home! I am so proud of myself for not eating my fav. junk food from Taco Bell. I am my own cheerleader sometimes. Go Me Go Me Go Go! Thanks everyone again. I love you guys. I hope you had a Super Saturday! To everyone on here Happy Mother's Day. I know some of you may not be yet............but you are getting it from me anyways bc, you all are wonderful women. Have a Satisfying Sunday!

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Lindy
"Let's kick some fat butt!"

I haven't been able to respond to everyone as this thread is booming!!

but Lindy, I'm so sorry for whatever it is your going through but please know that we are ALL here for you. If you need to vent or a shoulder to cry on, lean on us. This board has the most caring women that I have ever known. I'm glad to hear that things are on the mend. Big squeezey hugs!!!

Jenna - LOL didn't those oreo's make you tired

Keep up the great work everyone!!

DH bought me 6 Atkins endulge candy bars last night( 2 net carbs for the caramel nut chew *my fav* and 3 net carbs for the coconut choco one * I love coconut too lol*) and oh my I cant wait to sink one in my mouth today . I did want one last night sooooo sooo bad but I didn't want to take the chance in going over my 20 carbs for the day so I drank water instead. I was really really good yesterday at our mothers day get-together. I ate 2 sirloin burgers w/o the bun with cheddar cheese, onion, lettuce and tomato. I had 2 different types of salad, one greens and the other was made with red,green peppers, red onion, mozzarella cheese, black olives with dressing. We got to bring a lot of leftovers home too. For dessert everyone had a ice cream cake from DQ, and I brought Lemon Jello and a homemade protein bar, which was sooo good.

We walked to the park around the corner from Dh's GM's and DH and I went down the slide together LMAO while the IL's pushed Alyssa on the swings it was just so much fun to get out as a family. Then we walked into the cemetery next to the park and I wanted to look for my Grandfathers grave( my moms father who died back in 1970 from brain tumor), also looked at both of dh's GF's graves as a family. I thought I remembered where my GF's grave was but since its been 3 years since I visited I looked and looked . I found it just when I was going to give up, so that was nice and I should remember now where it is and noticed landmarks for next time . DH said Alyssa freaked him out and started running off in the cemetery calling "baby", and you know what they say, ghosts show themselves more to kids, there was nobody insight too . DH has went "ghost hunting" at night a few times and takes pictures in the cemetery's LOL, then I upload them to the pc and we look for anything weird or orbs, shadows or lights. We love a good ghost story too since we are horror movies freaks!! He wants me to go ghost hunting sometime with him when the MIL has Alyssa on a sleepover LOL. That should be fun .

The family is still sleeping and I'm going to go get breakfast started and get our picnic packed for around lunch to go to the park. Yes I'm making breakfast on Mother's day, DH ISN'T the best of a cook LOL.

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Cassie - LMAO at you saying "Chinese Joint" b/c the only person I've ever heard say that is my dad.

Tammy - sounds like you're doing great.


OK - I've been a bad girl since Friday - lots of bad choices. The good news - I didn't finish any of the servings I had of bad foods and I didn't eat one bite of Hannah's b-day. Bad news - I had bad choices for the past 6 of 9 meals. My plan is to REALLY be strict w/ myself for bkfast and lunch for the next few days - I've got lots of fruit and salad so that shouldn't be too hard and I've got to get my lazy butt cooking some healthy dinners -we all need them around here.

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