Kayla-OMG you look great! I think I hate you I actually lost some weight AFTER I stopped BF.

So far I have completed my second day using WW! I know it doesn't sound like much, but I'm excited to have finally decided on a "diet" to follow.

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Kayla I am with Bina- Would totally HATE if you if I didn't like you so much!!!! You look fantastic. I showed dh and said okay my tummy may have looked like that when I was TWELVE? You are rockin. I am so proud of you in so many ways. You are doing great! And about the gym...You may be right. I have so much stuff here and I did get to run outside yesterday with the jog stroller while Carter rode his bike and DH walked the dog. It felt great to be outside. We have baseball practice today. Spring is here. I don't know I still love the gym atmosphere and it would be good for Riley. She loves to be out around people.

BIna two days IS something and to be on track and seeing a goal is right! Keep up the good work you too will be looking great before long! We gotta think BATHING SUITS!!!

Steph so nice to see you back! I miss you when you go missing for DAYSSSSSSSSS. No gain no biggie! Get back on track! You have come too far to look back now besides you have new clothes! Can't outgrow those so keep on keeping on!

Kelly- how are you feeling on the pills? Do they make you feel jittery? I took some once and they made me bounce off the walls!! I hope you are doing great and don't stop posting there is no shame here. We are here always! We love you!

Okay so I HOPE to get in a workout today got my MOPS meeting this morning then I end up out with some of the girls usually. So we shall see. DH is coaching Carter's baseball team and they have their first practice today. Supposed to be 70 degrees and beautiful. Have a great day girls!

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Karen-I can just see you now jumping up and down with pom poms! I'm not thinking bathing suit, but more like BRIDESMAID! My brother's wedding in June, and of course the dress is one of those that hugs every curve,lol.

I've already lost a pound and that is with AF here!!

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Okay, now you get the award for making me laugh first, Bina.

Yeah, my abdomen didn't look like that when I was in dance team in high school, for crying out loud. But you're so purty Kayla.

I did something bad last night. I had my first fast food hamburger in months. A plain Whataburger with only cheese and bacon. It's not that it was a big craving, but I couldn't stand the thought of making dinner. It takes so much effort to do anything right now and I was so tired on the way home. The thought of cooking, even the toaster oven and microwave, made me want to cry. And I've been waking up in the middle of the night and eating a chocolate cupcake. And like I told y'all yesterday, not drinking my water and not eating my veggies. Not even lunch. I'm out of snack stuff too, usually fruit and cheese, but the thought of going to the store exhausts me. I'm even ran out of toilet tissue and couldn't bring myself to go to the store yesterday (yay napkins).

I'm falling off the wagon guys. Oh, I need a jump start. Karen, kick my butt or something. I need motivation.

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Okay Steph here goes....You need those BIG GIRL panties!!! Put them on and DEAL with it! Life is not fun and we ALL get tired. You need to stop feeling bad and get yourself motivated to look GREAT! You will feel great and everyone will know it. There is nothing more attractive than a confident and POSITIVE woman. SO show Daniel and everyone else that you are THAT woman!! Stop with the cupcakes. Exercise and a good diet are the things that make you have that energy. Get off that pity wagon and jump back on this party TRAIN! We are WAITING!!!! For goodness sake.

Okay how was that? Harsh enough?

I am waiting on dh to get back from his bike ride so I can go for a nice long jog outside. Riley is napping and I am exhaling from the morning. Love yall!

Oh and Bina---OMG we have got to get you looking HOT for that DRESS!! Keep up the good work. How long do we have before you have to wear it?? I HATE body hugging material. EEEK!

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*sniffle* Yes. I needed that. I actually printed it out. You know they say cut out a magazine pic of a body you want, or a skinny pic of yourself? Well, I'll just re-read Karen yelling at me. That should do it. You yell with such love. The only thing that would have made it better is:



LOL!

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Oh snap. I figured something out at lunch. I actually went to lunch, got a Subway sandwich, and had my gatorade with me. Guess when we do a lot of drinking? Duh. When we eat. And since I've been eating so little during the day, skipping lunch a lot...not drinking as much...not getting through my gatorade as quickly, so not getting to my water earlier in the day. I'm an idiot. Amazing how it all works together, eh?

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Okay so we are making progress!! EATING equals drinking. DUHHH Steph not rocket science. Okay you ate lunch which is good and made a good choice by choosing Subway instead of Whataburger...Another plus. Now get on that ball tonight or go for a WALK! What is stopping you? Once you get going it will feel great!!

I met up with a running buddy today and ran for 35 minutes then as she was running back home I saw another friend picked up with her and ran some MAJOR hills for 45 minutes. I felt great afterwards..THEN we ate pizza for dinner sort of counterproductive BUT I still feel good. This weekend will be a battle at DH's grandma's since she is a SOUTHERN cook. AKA uses butter in and on everything. lol Hopefully I can do portion control and stay out of the 100 candy dishes she has sitting around.

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Karen-thanks for the encouragement, the wedding is June 21st so I know I can do it! Since I am off tomorrow, I WILL WORK OUT!

Steph-remember you said that you eat because you think you "deserve" to when things are rough? Well time to tell yourself that you "deserve" to keep losing weight despite all the stuff going on! You can do it!!

Edit: OMG, lol at the blinkie!

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LOL, Ya'll are so funny!!

WTG girls, Keep it up!!!!!

I walked Lawson in his stroller yesterday and today for about 30 minutes. In the morning, I plan on going to the gym when dh gets home from work. The weather has been sooooo nice here, I LOVE IT!!

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Steph~ I also needed the "put on my big girl panties" talk from Karen. I've been SO BAD this week, and feeling crappy. I'm sure it's because I got 5 boxes of girl scout cookies on Monday, and have been eating them and not much else all week. YUCK! No wonder I feel like crap. You are so right about eating healthy and getting enough liquids. Girl scout cookies and water don't make for healthy eating. I won't be surprised if I GAIN this week. Yuck.

On the plus side, I have gotten in three workouts. So at least there's that. Although I doubt the piddly amount of calories I've burned working out went anywhere NEAR the ENORMOUS amount of calories I consumed by eating those d*mn cookies!

Anyway...

Kayla~ I do hate you. In a good way. I couldn't be more jealous! Your belly looks FANTASTIC! I can't believe you had a baby two months ago. I'm in shock.

Laura~ That's the funny thing, I never even talked about it. People would notice and about once a week would say "How much are you down now?" and I would answer them. There was a group of chubby girls who always sat in the breakroom eating crap, so I'm sure it was them who complained. You'd think they'd be happy for me, but unhappy people just can't do that. Congrats on being in the 120's! That is AMAZING!

Kelly~ Which pills are you taking, if you don't mind my asking? Please be very careful. I'm worried about you.

Heather and Karen~ Good job on the workouts!

Bina~ YAY for finding a healthy eating plan and looking hot in that dress!

Ok, I think I got everyone. I'm pooped now.

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Y'all are funny.

Karen ~ The walking lapse has been 1 part 'freaking BRRRR it's cold here', 1 part 'I'm tired' (not sleeping well, it's a vicious cycle), and 1 part 'I feel like crap and just want to sit oon the couch and be miserable'. AND after 5 remotes, I still can't find a universal one that will work with my tv/DVD player, and I'd only gotten to watch the ball DVD once before it went out. I tried to do some stuff on my own but didn't feel anything the next day, so I figured I was doing it wrong and there wasn't much point. I'm beginning to start contemplating again... The insomnia thing really does play a huge part in energy level; it has my whole life. I once missed a funeral for my boss because I was so exhausted I literally couldn't bring myself to get out of bed. Sucks. I really did print out what you said and read it to myself about three times last night. One time I started to cry. LOL! I love you.

Bina ~ Oh yeah, I knew a blinkie had to follow that speech. I do deserve it. You're right. It's been a rough couple of weeks, but the only person suffering b/c of getting off my game is ME. Perhaps a bit of that old 'cutting of my nose to spite my face' thing? It's also a satisfaction thing, no matter how short-lived. Somehow, those few seconds of chewing something is supposed to make my feel satisfied. And it hasn't helped that the only thing INSIDE the house has been the cupcakes (remember the fridge inside is dead and the one that works is out in the garage?). *sigh* Well, there's only one cupcake left in the box, so I'll save it for now, and then not buy anymore, at least not until I'm feeling a bit better. Kinda like having some smack lying around for a junkie who's in a weak place.

Jenna ~ GS Cookies and water? Oh yeah, you need some BGP (big girl panties) too. 'No wonder you feel like crap' is right! I didn't even buy any this year. And our jeweler sells them for her daughter. Willpower city when I didn't even get ONE box. I love tagalongs and samoas. But not as much as I love wearing my new size 14 pants, which I have on today again. And they're a little looser than before, even though I didn't loose. I washed them too; normally, that makes things tighter. Oh, but I think I washed in cold and dried on medium, so as not to shrink anything.

Okay, as for me, as tired as I was on the way home, I summoned up the energy to go to the store, and I bought bananas and cheese and whole wheat bread. I also made myself a sandwich last night to bring for lunch (I had some deli meat and cheese at home already). And I drank almost all my water. SO, in a couple minutes, I'll go have my carnation with milk, toast, a couple slices of cheese (I love these little 'cracker cuts' packages; they are perfectly sized for a little protein boost) and one of the two bananas I brought. Later for lunch, my sandwich, other banana, and maybe a little more cheese. I also have a ziplock baggie with some of that faux crabmeat if I want a snack later. And of course, my gatorade. On my way to back on track...

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Steph ~ OMG Karen put it so right! ***I'm a little scared of her now*** Just kidding! Seriously, you did not come all this way to just gain it back. SHOW everyone how awesome you can look INSPITE of everything you've been given to deal with. I can't imagine having insomnia. I know you've been to the Dr. for it and the last thing you want/need is meds. I really don't know what to tell ya for that one (wishing we had studied insomnia in neuro...not yet....btw neuro sucks and I should be studying it right now....okay, that's a different story). You can do it! And WTG with the subway/gatorade and healthy stuff from the store.

Karen ~ PARTY TRAIN - nice, I like it! After hearing you *kick* Steph's butt, I am CONVINCED you should be a physical/personal trainer when both Riles and Carter are in school. You could even have people come to your house since you have so much equipment. You are awesome!

Bina ~ You will look smokin' in that dress. Put a picture of it on the fridge and inside your cabinets (since your problem is your eating habits). Maybe that will help deter (sp?) you?

Jenna ~ Some people just like to gossip and gripe. Make your DH scarf down those cookies before you can get to e'm! You are doing great with all the workouts!

Heather ~ You are doing great!

Thanks for all the sweet (or scary ) comments ladies. You know how to make a girl feel better! Even though I don't work out, babies really are a great workout in themselves! Lifting Ashlyn, wearing her, and rocking her while sitting on a stationarychair really are all helping I think (small steps).

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Kayla ~ I've had it my whole life. It really does a number on you mentally and phychologically too, in addition to the general physical health and obvious mental and mood effects. There are stories of me wandering the house as a toddler... Anyway, I have studied it quite a bit, and there is a lot to do and try, and I have done and tried pretty much all of it (except accupuncture; never got there). The most important thing I learned is that it's a very personal combination as to what works for each person. I DO take meds to help (Ambien) right now, but either the generic (zolpidem) they came out with last year doesn't work the same, or the chemistry combining it with diazepam somehow depletes its effectiveness (no, I don't take them together, doc). I've been on it twice before, for about a year both times as one of the tools to get rested and 'get back on the wagon', once about ten years ago, and once about two years ago. The insomnia becomes it's own driving force after a while, and gets past a point where all the management 'tricks' have any effect without chemical assistance to jump start what is basically a lot of self-treatment. Got there again last year. Ugh.

My sister called me from California once about 7 years ago out of the blue and said "I haven't been able to sleep in a week. I was sitting on the floor in my room sobbing at 4am this morning because I'm so beyond exhausted. If this is what you've been talking about all these years, I'm so sorry." That about sums it up.

Thanks for the 'props' too. And you're right; Karen would make a great trainer. She could cater to moms with school age kids; you said she could run it from home cause she has the equipment. Like I said above, she yells with such love.

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