Bina~ I haven't posted one over here, but there are some recent pics of me in the baby thread. I'll have to have DH take a new one and I'll post it over here. I'm SOOO not where I want to be, so it's not a "hot" picture, but definitely a "I weigh much less now" pic.

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Is everyone busy pigging out today?

I started counting calories again - I'm aiming for 1200-1500/day. I know that's a pretty big range, but I just need a starting place. I ran this morning and got really sweaty - it was great.

Just got done w/ therapy - I'm not going back for 3 weeks b/c she thought I could handle it and b/c of scheduling. In the meantime, I'm supposed to go get a physical and full bloodwork. We talked a little a/b meds today. I know exercise is helping and she's given me some mental exercises to work on. I told her I am nervous a/b how I will handle things when I go back to work. She said at that point, we will probably know if I need to try meds or not.

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Hey Kelly. A bit of pigging out over here but nothing major. Glad you went to the therapist and she thinks things will be fine for a couple weeks. Do not worry though if you do get stressed and need those meds. You are doing a great job of trying to deal with it on your own. I commend you for that. Oh and way to go on a run and getting sweaty. Made me lol when I read that. Do you normally not sweat? I am a sweaty stinky pig when I work out. you must glisten like a lady.

I went to two classes this morning. Dh was able to help me get the kids to the gym and the running program. I did an hour of cycling and then an hour of toning. Completely enjoyed it. Then I had a million of errands to run. Had to pick up a baby gift I had monogrammed and got me a new diaper bag. Cooked dinner for a family we are friends with, Had to go take a urine specimen to the doctor for Riley...YAWN. This is the first I have SAT all day. Dh washed the kids and put them to bed. I am about to go veg on the couch but wanted to check in a minute first.

Planning two classes again tomorrow...Pilates ball class and then Cardio bootcamp. PHEW. I am definately getting stronger but it is totally impossible to lose weight where you want to. I realize that target zones are a myth but gosh one of these days I keep hoping. UGH.

That turned into rambling. Sorry I am tired.

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Karen - I always sweat, I was just extremely sweaty today. When I used to go to the gym and do 2 classes in a row, I would have to change shirts in between b/c the first one would be soaked. Poor little Hannah sweats like me - we go outside for 5 minutes and her (5 pieces of) hair are matted to her head.

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Riley is a sweaty Betty too. Poor thing.

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Kelly-you must be psychic because I WAS pigging out yesterday!

I was good for breakfast and had my healthy choice lunch. But then I was so hungry and bored at work that I had a couple of pieces of chocolate, and then some hot chocolate because my office is FREEZING.

I should be able to get a workout in today at least

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I had oatmeal for breakfast, I have grilled chicken and corn for lunch. I have a WW cookie for snack or some FF Popcorn. For supper we are having a frozen pizza w/ wheat crust. It's really good and not super high in points. I am also doing good with my water this week!

ETA: I am going to leave my weightloss ticker up throughout my pregnancy and see how far in the red I get. LOL!!! I guess that is not really funny huh!!! I just don't want to change my goal or anything so we'll see how much work I have to do after this baby!

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Cassie - I think that's a great idea.

I finally lost 1/2 lb. That's the first loss in a while, but it's re-losing weight I had lost 3months ago. AF is on the way and I feel awful - terrible cramps. Maybe in a few days I will drop a few more lbs from the water weight.

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Kelly ~ Good realization a/b the exercise! I'm sorry you felt badly, but that's wonderful that it led you into learning something like that about yourself. Yay. And I'm also very glad that your therapist seems to be interested in watching how things go and keeping the option open. Yay.

Karen ~ *smack* You know you can't spot reduce my darling.

I wasn't pigging out (hell, I CAN'T pig out anymore), but I did have a moment on Sunday -- I had two double cheeseburgers from McDonalds (the little $1 ones). It was a meltdown thing, and it was the only thing I ate all day, so all in all, it wasn't a major breakdown. I really haven't been eating well the past month+. I also feel like I can't recover from that weekend where I ate almost nothing and then tried to pass out that Tuesday. It's like I've been weak ever since. I'm getting hungry a lot, like stomach growling hungry. I jacked myself up with that. Poor body. Don't do things like that to yourself!!! I think once I really start eating properly and consistantly again it will be better. I'm sure that will happen with HIM home again now, and getting ready to go to Florida, etc.

I also realized that I have loose skin. Not that very top layer; I knew that, but more. I have, well, not folds on my back, but my bra makes lines, KWIM? That kind of thing. I realized that I'm a lot thinner than you can tell right now, but the loose skin has it camoflaged. It's going to take some time I guess. Danny said the same thing last night. I told him I no longer have a single pair of slacks that fit. I turned sideways and sorta pulled my nightgown tight and stood up really straight and accentuated my waist profile with my hands; I believe the quote was 'DAMN!' It's very odd to have extra skin, for everything to bee loostened up. Very odd.

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So Steph when did he come home and tell me again when you leave. OMG getting so close. Is the plan still for him to go too?? OMG on the loose skin. You are AWESOME but take care of that new body and eat that food!!

So I went to cardio bootcamp and worked my butt OUT and as soon as I was leaving dh called and wanted to take the fam to lunch at Applebee's so then I proceeded to eat a chicken fingers basket... So much for my work out. BUT it will be the only bad thing i eat today because I had a protein bar for breakfast and he has a dinner meeting and when that is the case I never really eat so I am thinking raisin bran or something light for dinner to balance out the calories at lunch. UGH! I wish I had said no and came home but I was missing him and won't see him tonight until late so I was glad to go. Oh well....

AF is almost gone. She was very light this time. Which is the norm for me when I am working out hard.

I have this party at my house Thursday night and honestly I am stressing. So many things that need to be done...Things I wish I had time to do beforehand but don't and then worrying about fixing all the food and balancing the kids. Then packing for VA this weekend. CRAZY what I try to get into one week. I think I will go nap while I have a chance and Riley is down. After she wakes I will go at the house full force. Well after we go outside and play with the batman remote control car of course. Carter is waiting patiently.

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K ~ Just since last night. He's seeeeeeemed different for the past month or so, but I'm holding everything at arms length. This would have to be the grand daddy master of all manipulations though, and I don't think he's got the brainpower for that at this point. Yes, the plan is that WE are going. Less than two weeks; my last day of work is the morning of the 1st, and then whatever loose ends need to be tied up. I'd say by the 4th.

He asked me the other day what happens if we get to Florida and I decide I don't want anything more to do with him. Rather than tell him it wouldn't happen or any of that, I told him I'd buy him a bus ticket if that happened. I'm tired of babying him about this crap. It's ridiculous. I'm speaking more frankly than I used to. He did say something about having to 'man up' last night. *sigh* Oh, I'm just going to start drinking.

BTW, I've had raisin bran for dinner plenty of times in the past year. I think it's a pretty good choice actually.

Yeah, I know, I have to shake out of this and get my a$$ back in gear.

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Steph - good answer!

Karen - what kind of party are you having?

Robin - how have you been doing? Ready for your weigh in? I need to sneak a peek at my scale in the morning...I have no clue how I am really doing this week!!! I am eating healthy, wasn't doing THAT great over the weekend though, but I am drinking PLENTY of water! I hope it's helping!

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Heh heh. Thanks. Stephie's a little different than she used to be.

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I am so ready for my weigh-in tonight. I hope I don't jinx myself but I think I did really good. I didn't even sneak at the scale this week eiter but I feel thinner. My clothes are fitting better or I should say not fitting I wore a shirt yesterday that I haven't worn in a few weeks and it was big on me. Oh I am loving this feeling I am getting my hair cut tomorrow I am excited about that. DH and I are going out alone Friday (just to the mall and dinner) but I can't wait to do my hair and make-up and try to look nice for him. I haven't felt this way in a LONG LONG time.

Cassie - You are doing so good. You may end up weighing in less after you have the baby.

Hi everyone else

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Robin - Oh isnt that the most wonderful feeling!!! I am soo proud of you, you are doing GREAT!!! The feeling you have and the clothes getting bigger is a much better feeling then the #'s on that scale! YAY for a date with dh!!! That would be SOOO great if I could weigh less after the baby!!! Its WAY early in the game, but I pray I can stick to it!!! It's got to be my new lifestyle!

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Robin Can't wait to see how much you lost this week. And remember your clothes are the key. You can see inches that way not a number onthe scale! YOU GO GIRL~

Cassie it is a Initial Outfitters party. They do monogrammed stuff- jewelry, purses, towels things like that. I wish I had not volunteered but I was helping a friend. I am going to start a appetizer thread for everyone to post me some quick and easy appetizers. I have a few that I make but they all include cream cheese so I need some variety.

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