Well, last night I started spotting. DH and I have suffered through 4 miscarriages, so I was expecting the worst. I went to my Ob this morning and got the usual spill i get when this happens. She ordered and u/s to make sure the pregnancy wasnt ectopic. We had to wait an hour for the sono so we dropped my youngest off at grandma's since she couldn't be there in the room with us. DH and I were sitting in the car waiting. Out of no where he starts telling me that he feels like God is telling him we still have hope, and not to listen to what the dr is saying. He said he was supposed to tell me not to walk in defeat. Now, DH does not talk to me like this. Especially under these circumstances, and with our history of m/c. Not one, and i mean not one second after he tells me to have hope, Addison road comes on the radio. Here are the lyrics if you arent familiar with the song.Its called "Hope Now"

If everything comes down to love
Then just what am I afraid of?
When I call out your name
Something inside awakes in my soul
How quickly I forget I’m yours

I’m not my own
I’ve been carried by you
All my life

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free

When my life is like a storm
Rising waters all I want is the shore
You say I’ll be ok
And make it through the rain
You are my shelter from the storm

I’m not my own
I’ve been carried by you
All my life

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love set me free
You’ve become my heart’s desire
And I will sing your praises higher
Cause your love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free

DH and I just started crying... Anyhow, we make it up to our ultrasound, and i am not wanting to look up at the screen, afraid that I will see that empty sac again. The tech is explaining what she is looking at, here's the placenta, the ovaries, the yolk sac, ....the heartbeat! What? I looked up and saw my little bean! I couldnt believe it. The tech said everything looks great. I did have a subchorionic (sp) bleed. Not an uncommon thing and it should resolve on its own. By the time we got home this afternoon the bleeding had already stopped. They will do another ultrasound to make sure it has completely stopped next week. Anyhow, I just wanted to share what happened. DH and I decided if we have a girl, her name is hope.

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Beautiful story. Wow write that one down in a pregnancy journal for your baby! I wish you a healthy pregnancy!!

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Lynn- Amazing!! I will keep you and your family, and most especially little Hope in my prayers. Hope is such an amazing thing and thank God that we are given that much to hold tightly to. His gifts are truly fantastic and DH was there at that very moment specifically for you. I believe that whole-heartedly.

CONGRATS!!!

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YEAH, LYNN!!! Congratulations on your little bean! I am so excited for you; I cried when I read your story. At the beginning of this pregnancy, I was told that I was miscarrying twins (they had seen two empty sacs the week before, and then I started bleeding). They were going to do an internal to make sure whether or not to do D&C, and to everyone's surprise they found one strong heartbeat---Most amazing moment ever, and I didn't want to look at the screen either. Well, my baby has obviously grown and done fine, and I am sure yours will too! I'm so happy for you and DH; and once you have seen the heartbeat, you get to be so much more optimistic!

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Lynn - Praise God! I love it when He tells you that things are fine and not to worry. I know you are relieved to see your little one thriving. I think Hope is a perfectly beautiful name. Lots of luck and prayers your way.

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Thanks, everyone. I am still filled with such awe and gratitude.

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Lynn-Praise God! I'm just in tears. Thank you for sharing that with us. Prayers for a healthy 9 months!

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Oh, Lynn! You story gave me chills! I can't wait to meet Hope!!!!!

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Lynn - that is a beautiful story! I hope everything continues to go well. I'm sorry to hear a/b your other losses.

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Oh Lynn, may god be with you every step of this pregnancy. Beautiful story by the way.

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Lynn- That is a wonderful story

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Lynn, I just read this, and I wanted to tell you congratulations, because I didn't even know you were pg again!
Beautiful story- we have to remember to believe God knows much more than doctors.

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Lynn - That was beautiful! Congrats on your wonderful news!

Lynn God's grace and love are awesome! I pray for a healthy and happy pregnancy for you!! Don't feel defeated but instead blessed. How exciting!!

I love Addison Road by the way! I am huge contemporary christian music fan. Toby Mac is my fav!

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What a beautiful story Lynn - thank you for sharing! What a miracle your little one is!

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Its official...its a girl!

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Awwww! Congrats! Hi Hope!

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thanks! CJ is soo cute in her B-Day pics! What a doll!

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