I'm here, just bummin as usual.

I guess I'm going to have to go buy a new bbt. Since I can't seem to find my old one.

Still haven't called the dr. On my notes, I have to wait six months. And although my lp hasn't really gotten any longer, it is still better than it was.

Hoping, praying, and trying to not stay focused on the "what if"

Irene - Sorry about the JOB! I hope you find a new one that you love soon.

Rac - I'm excited to see what comes of all this. Lord knows if anyone deserves it, it's you.

Hi everyone else! I too am so enjoying this lovely cool weather.

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Well, thanks for your well-wishes ladies...My numbers from yesterday were good for hcg she said (it was thirteen, but I ovulated two weeks ago from this coming Saturday, so I am not even four weeks yet) BUT not so good for progesterone. I can't remember what the number was, but it was in the teens. I have been taking progesterone twice daily, so the nurse said to start taking it three times daily and if it doesn't go up by tomorrow then I will start taking progesterone injections... any input on this all? I haven't had my progesterone tested in the past when I have been pregnant, so I am confused as to why it would be low or what this means (other than the egg may not stick). I am trying so hard to keep myself busy so I don't think about it too much.

I did decide to test in the morning... so hopefully numbers will tell me something by the end of the day!

Does anybody know of any good information on progesterone and why it would be so low?

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Hi guys, just a quick check in -


Mel/irene - Green with envy you guys will be in the city!!!
Deanna - That is fabulous news about your friend. good luck with the lap if I don't talk to you before then.


Becky - LOVED the Wahlberg blinkie


Lisa - OMG I would die. 49 degrees!!! I don't miss that awful NY cold weather at all. It was 100 degrees here yesterday. Of course October seems to be natural disaster month around here. Good luck with the 100mg


Mel - You are so lucky you get to travel so much. I tell Carlos all the time, traveling would have been a better use of our money than IF treatments.


A friend of mine told me about a song called unanswered prayers from Garth Brooks. it was her way of making me feel better about our dream not coming true.


In 2 weeks I'll be volunteering at the symposium that REsolve is giving. RESOLVE: The National Infertility Association:

it's the one I went to in January that I came back with all that info. Would be nice to win the IVF. A part of me hopes not to see anyone I met last year cause that would be wierd. Carlos is meeting me there, there is a men's only panel, I'm going to see if I can get a mini recorder, I think it would be great to listen in to. The breakouts are different than last year. (How sad that this is my 2nd one) Since I'm not going there with an agenda for myself, if anyone has a class they want me to go for them and take lots of notes, just PM me. I don't have a problem doing that. At least it'll give me purpose. I'm only volunteering in registration and cleaning up after the drawing.

Thanks to those of you who touch base with me outside of CT - to me that is way more meaningful than posting here. Just seems everytime I sign on and am about to post I see something that just stings...I guess I'm still working on getting a thick skin and relaxing...so best to just vent externally.

Hugs to everyone.

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Well, AF arrived

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Oh Missy........... My heart hurts for you. I wish I was closer to give you a hug.

In 13 hours....we will be at the SIRM clinic for our new patient consultation. It doesn't seem fair that we have to do this............but, I have to know what has been going on, and this seems to be the only way I'm going to be able to get a doctor to give me some damn answers. The last 4, yes I said 4, doctors have been unable (or unwilling in my opinion) to do anything, so this is the avenue that we have to go down. I am trying to not expect any answers tomorrow, because I know they need to do more testing to provide answers, but I am at least hoping that we will have a game plan on what we need to do. I'm also hoping that since tomorrow is CD3 that they may be able to get some testing out of the way tomorrow. And ten we will just go from there.

Joe's back is out, so I've been babying him all day.....probably not a good thing....lol. He's going to end up spoiled, and then I'll be screwed! LOL! It was so sweet though, he called me earlier when I was at work and I answered and he was like hi punkin, what are you doing? I said are you lonely? and he's like yeah....I miss you, come home. It was really sweet. I hate when he doesn't feel good or is hurt, because I know there is nothing I can do to make it better.

Well, enough of a novel....I will check in tomorrow when I get back from the doctor and let you know what he says.

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Missy - Is it possible that this is just some part of the 30% of pregnancies that have some bleeding?? Will you go for your b/w anyway, just to make sure?? {{hugs}}

Betsy - If there's anything there about adhesions let me know!!

Mary - Thanks. It's good to see you post.

Jen - Good luck today!! I hope Joe's back is feeling better. I know, all too well, about back pain from personal experience and my dh's experience.

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rac - I am sooo hoping you are right! I am going this morning still for bloodwork... I thought that maybe since there were three eggs, if more than one got fertilized and then I lost one, maybe I would spot with that, but now I am wondering about implantation bleeding. I woke up feeling sick to my stomach for the first time and there is no more blood. Yesterday I was just getting some dark brown discharge, and not enough that I would have noticed had I not looked for it...none AT ALL this morning. UGH - I hate all the ups and downs...but at least I will know more today after my tests... thanks for the encouragement!

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Missy - Brown is good....that is old blood! As long as you're not having nasty AF type cramping or red blood, you should be okay. That's a good theory about the three eggs, too. Please let us know as soon as you get your results. Will they test your progesterone again, too??

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Missy-big *hugs* It is a great sign that the spotting/bleeding has stopped. As far as progesterone goes, it can either be low because the pregnancy itself is failing, or it could be low because you have a healthy PG but that your body is just not producing enough progesterone. As long as the HCG goes up, they can give you progesterone supplements (pills, suppositories, even shots) to correct it.

Missy-Good luck and hang in there. I had brown spotting/discharge with this last cycle too and thought for sure it was a failure. I was about 2 weeks after O. It actually continued off and on for a few days. I agree with Rebecca that as long as it's not red and you're not cramping you are still in the game. Glad you are going back for another test.

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I took today off and shopped at the Christmas Show. I LOVE CHRISTMAS. It was so much fun.

Missy~ I hope it is just "normal" bleeding... I would ask the dr for a pio prescription. Progesterone can really help make it stick.

Bets~ Take the eggs. teeheee. Just kidding. But yes, thank her for all of us IF'ers... (((hugs))) miss you my friend.

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Well, my experience today was one of the best that I have had in the last year. Dr. S really took time to listen to me and my worries, etc, and immediately (well, after like an hour of talking to me) came up with a game plan, AND got it under way! Today is CD3, so they were able to do the CD3 blood work and ultrasound. I have PCOS (so I'm going to have to do a lot of research on it....) and she gave me this "informational packet" that she had written and had published somewhere about it. So, that's helpful. I have to go next week for an HSG (gonna have to do some research on this too) just to be sure that there are no blockages or anything going on inside my uterus. Then we will go from there. I really feel SO much better after sitting and talking with Dr. S. I guess it's just a waiting game now.

Can anyone tell me what to expect with the HSG? I am going to look up specifics on it, but I wanted just some feedback if any of you gals have had one. What should I expect, how long does it usually take, you know that kind of thing.....

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Angel~ For me, I laid on a table and it basically starts like a pap, but they insert a catheter instead. They shoot dye up into your uterus and try to push it through your tubes as well. They take images of it and can see the shape of your uterus and your tubes. In terms of pain, an hsg varies from person to person. It can be a really easy, painless procedure for some, and a miserable one for others. I fall in the miserable camp. Mine was horrible. You may want to ask if your dh can come with you, just in case. I know some offices will allow that and some won't. Take as large of a dose of ibuprofin as you can before you go, and you may want to ask for something to relax you as well. I took a xanax beforehand. Hopefully yours will be easy and painless.

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Jen - As far as the HSG I fell under the uncomfortable camp. the wierd part was having to tilt to one side or the other with the cathether inside of you. They had a hard time getting the cathether in because my cervix is tilted to the right. But was never told there was an issue during my IUI's. (shrug) I think for me the emotional aspect was worst. I felt really really violated and was really upset over it that evening and Carlos paid the price for a few days. I wish I had taken him. I didn't ask prior and just assumed he wouldn't be allowed in, once there I was told he would have been allowed in. My attendants were awesome and had great bedside manner, I had one holding my hand the whole time. Oh and they gave me a pad but i already had a liner. I spotted for a few days.

Lauren - i actually just talked to her, TRIPPY to talk to someone after 20 somehting years, wierd to be that old. It sucked cause I had to tell her that her boyfriend in elementary school was killed when he was 17 in a drug transaction. She had to get off the phone and call me back.

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Hi ladies,

I'm here. I've been on here every few days to catch up, there just isn't anything exciting going on in my life. Work is great, but it keeps me a lot more busy than my other job (but the people are much nicer... which makes up for it).

I took clomid days 3-7 this cycle, so we'll see what happens with it. The doc said she is not worried about my long LP, saying that as long as it isn't too short it is okay. She said she could do some tests on my Progesterone level towards the end of my LP, but I told her it's not something I want to do yet. I figured whenever/ifever I go back to the RE, I will do it then.

I feel almost like I'm burnt out on the whole process. I kept telling myself I would renew FF, but... haven't done that yet. I guess I'm numbing out, praying that this is the month but realizing it probably won't happen. Anyone else feel that way? Sorry... the Debbie Downer in me is coming out.

Irene - I'm sorry about the job. I'm sure you will find something much better. Yay to getting your meds quickly. I'm really interested in the whole process.

Rac - be sure to get pictures at graduation!!

Hello everyone else! I want to write more, but I'm running late. My mom and I are headed to the mall to look through the sales. I'll check back later today.

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Mare - I so feel ya on the whole burnt out mode. I pray and hope, but realize that it probably won't happen. Somedays I'm just ready to say F it, and try (which I know is impossible for me) to not worry, think, or do anything about it. I know that this has majorly affected DH and I, and our bd life. I'm really just not sure what to do? Since going to an RE with horrible insurance just isn't in our budget right now. I guess the only thing I can do is work on being a better me, and hope that DH wants to hop on that train as well. It's almost like two battles in one, IF sucks, which makes me depressed, and being depressed makes life suck. And I hate being this way!

On a positive note, O will be here Tuesday or Wednesday. blah.

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