I will second that one Regina! WE are all due for that too!

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Regina- thanks for thinking of me. Sometimes I feel that since I don't post very often that I am a step-child of the TTC-ers. I check in everyday, but just don't have a lot to say.

I go in this month for the post-coital swab. I've got to call the dr. office when I get my surge and go in after we BD. I kind of hope that I am too acidic for DH, at least we'll have something to work with.

My puppy is turning one tomorrow and we are having a birthday party for her on Sunday. I'll have to post some photos. I am making her a birthday cake, a birthday girl hat and treat favors to pass out to the guests (we are having 16 friends and family over, potentially some pups, too). We will cook out if the rain decides it is over.

Stephanie- I am Catholic and I am going to attend the Stations of the Cross tonight, so I will keep you in my thoughts tonight when I say the rosary. You are right about it quieting your mind. After the first 10 Hail Mary's your mind stops buzzing and begins to relax. It's very therapuetic.

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Roma~ You are ALWAYS welcome here! If you feel like the "step child" you are in luck, because I am VERY good to my step-children! I am happy to see you post!

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Roma, thank you honey. He's really trying my faith right now. I just don't know what to do. He can be so hateful. I can't do anything right. I haven't even barely seen him in four days because he started driving a taxi again. And when I have seen him, he's just mean. I'm getting 'in sickness', 'for poorer', and 'for worse' all at the same time. And not being honored. And not forsaking all others. Blah, blah, blah. But, no matter what his actions are, I still am the person I am, and I have to find the balance between honoring my vows, and honoring and protecting and caring for myself. He sucks. I wish I could sock him one sometimes.

Just put me out of my misery. If it wasn't for valium, I'd probably have my head in the oven. But instead, I'm having a chocolate milkshake from Baskin Robbins (we have one next door) for lunch.

I'm really sad right now.

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Hi friends.

Stephanie - I don't have any words of wisdom to offer you, but I want to give you a great big ole' cyber hug. I hope spring and Easter breath some new life into yours.

Regina - Thank you for thinking of me too. That stinks about the UTI. I have been getting recurrent UTI's since I stopped BCP, but I haven't had one this month. What I did different: took GNC brand Cranberry pills, I think they're 500 mg, once a day. I get sick of drinking cranberry juice everyday, so the pills are a nice alternative and I just take it with my prenatal.

Lauren - You are very good to your step-children. You will be just the best mother in the world. DH says the same thing when he rubs my tummy or lays his head on it. He just "knows" we will be. I have to be the stinkin' pessimist (sp?) and say "you don't know that though " So far, I'm going to try and trust that he has never lied to me, nor been wrong. (he said the same thing about med-school, he just "knew" I would get in)

Betsy - That is sooo sweet about Carlos protecting you and brought tears to my eyes. Everytime we even see a pg person in public Ryan just automatically looks at me and says "We'll get ours" it is sweet but sometimes makes me mad that he even assumed I noticed or thought we wouldn't. KWIM?

I am still feeling very apprehensive about the RE appt on the 10th. This is month # 11 for us, so not a year yet, but have any of you taken a peak at my chart? (I didn't temp this month b/c we thought we would do the lap/hsg with the other doc, but cancelled due to her personality). TMI warning: I had black light/spotting (like normal these days) on March 3rd with cramps, but then 9 days after that AF on March 13th red light/spotting with no cramps.....then I had a very much increased sex drive March 24 and 25 with EWCM......I cramped really bad yesterday like AF was coming.........

I HATE MY (&*#@#^*$ UP CYCLES! (sorry, I needed a vent)

I wish you all the best of luck with these IUI's, geeze, this board needs it!

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Lauren - Just an FYI I hope you don't mind that I stole your baby dust siggy to show to another site.......I love it! Good luck with the upcoming IUI.

Stephanie - I'm sorry to read about your problems with DH........your incredibly strong and I admire how committed you are to your marriage.

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Steph~ Sorry you're sad.

Mizz~ I stole it from someone on ff! I thought it was PERFECT!

Kayla~ We are very fortunate to have such good dh's!

Girls, I am having a delima... I want your opinions...
Tomorrow bean has been invited to a birthday party of a friend from school. The parents of the little girl have asked the children to meet at their house at 9:30 tomorrow morning and they are driving the kids to Raleigh (about an hour away) and taking them to Build A Bear and then to lunch. Then they will drive back to her house for the parents to pick the kids up. Sid is only 6 and it makes me very nervous letting her go the whole day with that famiy all the way to Raleigh. I mean, I am sure it would probably be fine, but I worry about her. What if she has an allergic reaction to something? What if she gets sad? I know I am being RIDICULOUS, but I am worried. Do you think dh and I should go with her, or meet them in Raleigh???

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Stephanie - Thanks for the blinkie!! Thats so cute!

Lauren - Hrm. If it would really make you feel better, maybe ask the parents if its okay if you tag along just in case Sid needs you. Or ask if they can give you their cell/house numbers and you can give them yours, so in case there is an emergency they can get ahold of you or visa versa. If Sid is allergic to anything, just let them know ahead of time so they will be aware. I'm sure she'll have fun. You're such an awesome Step Mommy.

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Thank you Regina, Steph, Lauren, Lisa, Buffet. I've missed everyone here so much.

I feel so lost and out of the loop but I will try my best to catch up!

Regina-You're always so sweet! I will definitely take you up on that offer! So how is the Clomid treating you so far? I'm sooo happy for you that things are moving along for you and I hope and pray that you will get your BFP VERY VERY soon! And yay for DH's good SA results but boo to that uti! Those suck! And I third that sentiment...we all deserve our BFPs!

Steph-Thank you for the pm. I hope things with DH are getting better. You deserve nothing less than the best and he better give that to you my friend! Hope the prog cream does the trick!

Lauren-My fingers are crossed for ripe follies on the open side! Everyone's right, you're an awesome mommy already! I know it'll happen for you SOON!

As for DSD going an hour away, I would do whatever would make you more comfortable with the situation. I think it might be kinda fun to join them actually!

Lisa-How are things? It's so great to see you posting again!

Buffet-Yes, this ttc journey has been frustrating to say the least but it's great to have such a wonderful support system here! And yeah, if ONLY it were that easy!

Kayla-I'm sorry about your "(&*#@#^*$ UP" cycles (did I get that right?). I hope the RE has a quick 'n' easy solution for you so that you can get your BFP.

Roma-Ooo, a birthday party for your puppy! Sounds like fun and can't wait to see pics!

Betsy-I'm glad you and Carlos had some quality alone time. I hope everything falls in place for you...what a juggling act with so much going on at once!

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Hey Snowie~ So does this mean you're officially TTC again? Wha hoo! I wish you loys and lots of baby dust! Good to see you having time to post again

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Hey Regina! I don't know if DH and I would be considered to be officially ttc these days until we get our butts into see an RE. But, thanks! I'll take the baby dust anyways!

How have you been?

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Snowie~ So much better tonight, thanks. The last two nights I had major side effects from the clomid, but tonight I'm perfectly fine. Not even a hot flash I like the hot flashes Well shoot girl, how the heck are we going to get you in to see the RE? Have you had your progesterone checked? I can't remember.

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Regina-I'm glad you're feeling better tonight! Occasional hot flashes were about the only symptom I got from my one month on Clomid (50mg). Are you taking 100mg? You're so funny, liking the hot flashes! But you are usually cold right so they must bring you up to "normal" temp!

I dunno how the heck we're gonna get into the RE anytime in the near future. I did have my progesterone checked, as well as my cd3 levels, thyroid, immune sytem stuff, HSG, just about everything under the sun. All normal supposedly. About the only thing we didn't get checked out is the SA. DH is all for it but again, it's a time issue. He works Tuesday-Saturday and I work M-F, plus I have classes on Thursday evenings and Saturdays now and nobody's open on Sunday so yeah, we're pretty much screwed at least until the summer. A bit of good news though, DH's insurance covers infertility including IUI at 50% so we won't be in too terrible of a financial crunch as I originally thought. But time's an issue with the IUI too right? I guess I'll just be spinning my wheels until at least July. How sad.

But I'll live vicariously through you girls! Can't wait for another run of BFPs!

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Snowie~ That is so wonderful that DH's job pays for 50% of the IUI. Summer isn't too far away, but who knows, Maybe you can get that BFP before having to see the RE this summer. Make an appt for Dh to do his SA on a Monday. At least this way you will know how that is.

Yes, I'm always freezing so I very much welcome the hot flashes. You're right. It makes me feel normal And yes, I'm starting off at 100mg clomid.

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