Oh Steph~ I am so sorry for everything you are having to go through. *hugs*

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Sometimes, I feel so positive and clear, sometimes, I feel like I'm hanging by a thread... I've actually started reciting The Lord's Prayer and The Apostle's Creed in my head when my brain starts to get too crazed. The one time in my life I wish I was Catholic so I could pray a rosary (I can do it, but not by myself...LOL!)

I like your baby dust blinkie.

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Regina-I guess I never thought too much about the timing of the IUI. We all know our cycles but it can still be a toss up when you'll get your surge. My DH's job is crazy too so if we get that point we'll definitely need to ahve a serious conversation about it. But in the end we all figure it out right?! The pieces will fall into place. I just wanted to say I'm excited to see you back and moving full speed ahead. I think that's great.

Steph-I can't imagine what you are going through. I hope you get things sorted out and find peace with whatever the outcome is. I give you lots of credit for sticking it out.....not sure I'd have the patience for it!

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Heidi~ Thanks. That's the terms that I've come too..."The pieces will fall into place". Whatever happens is b/c it is or isn't meant to be. I guess I can't be in control of the whole world

Steph~ You don't need to be Catholic in order to pray, but me personally wouldn't pray the rosary

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Reg - Yes timing is extremely stressful. And I'm pretty damn regular. Since I had been charting I have O'd on day 13 like once and on day 12 like 9 or 10 times and on day 11 only 2 or 3 times. ...but the month of my IUI after DH & I had vacations day planned, Jonathan taken care of, I O on day 13th i was pulling my hair out. I had to cancel my vacation day twice. This month we are doing it during Easter Break so my ex is taking him to San Diego for those days. Now if I O late again I'm screwed cause I'll be half way to Vegas. DH and I currently have planned to take vacation days again for the IUI. Hopefully my body will cooperate. That's also gotta be tough for the guys to "perform" in a cup knowing that the kiddies are close by.

When you have to plan things around 2 jobs & a kid cause you need to squirt in a cup, take it to the sperm place, get it washed, then take it to the Dr to get it inside of you...you start resenting a little bit that you can't just get pregnant in the back seat of a car like every one else.

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Betsy~ OMG! You just hit the nail on the head. Thank you!

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I miss Snowie. Is she ok? Has anyone heard from her?

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I've been thinking about her too I think Betsy keeps in touch with her.

So, last night was my first dose of clomid and I had major side effects. I had a migraine from hell and hot flashes. I like the hot flashes b/c usually I'm always very cold Today I have no side effects at all. Oh, I had the big "D" earlier. Isn't that a side effect? I thought for sure I would have another migraine tonight. Thank God I don't. I think I'm getting another UTI though I've never had a UTI until recently, now I've had two within two months

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HIIIIIIII GIRLS!!!!

AWWWWW, thank you for thinking of me! I'm sorry I haven't been on but things have been nonstop between taking care of my mom and all the loose ends that need to be tied up due to my dad's passing, work, school (just got back from class), homework, trying to find a house...and the list goes on. We just scattered his remains at sea this past Saturday and though it was incredibly beautiful, it was still so very sad. My mom scattered them and it was absolutely heartbreaking.

I'm also having a hard time coming to grips with my infertility and feel frustrated at this lack of control I have especially since I can't get into the RE because I simply can't find the time. And funds aren't flowing as freely due to the househunt and the outrageous home prices. House? Fertility treatment? It's one or the other at this point.

But I want you all to know that I think of each and every one of you often and hope and pray for all of your BFPs and beautiful little ones.

Love you all!

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Oh my, I didn't realize I'm 30 dpo...better go change that!

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OMG Snowie! I just broke down and cried when I read your post. I'm not blaming this one on the clomid. You are going through so much, it's unbelievable. I think about you often and hope all settles down for you soon. I'm glad they finally released your dads body. I'm sure it must have been a beautiful memorial and sad at the same time. Please feel free to call me anytime if ever you want to talk or vent. I'm here for you! ((Hugs))

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Snowie so sorry for all you are going through too, know you have friends here who love and care about you!

God Bless!

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Good morning friends! TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Snowie~ I am so happy to see you post! I have thought about you SO MUCH and wish there was something I could do to make things easier for you. You have been through so much and I was worrying about you. *hugs*

Steph~ *hugs*

Gina~ Ouch, Sorry about the headache. I have gotten a few each month since on Clomid, but not many. I do think I get hotflashes sometimes, but they arent too bad either.

Bets~ I wish it really worked that way, that I could get an "oops" pregnancy.

Last night dh and I were lying in bed, and he was rubbing my tummy saying that he can't wait until there is a baby in there for him to talk to. I asked him if he really thought we would get pregnant, and he said he knew we would. Broke my heart. I am so lucky to have him. I am so happy he is optomistic for me, even when sometimes I am not.

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Lauren - I love the baby dust blinkie!!


Here you go, I wouldn't want to defy you!

Thanks Meredith! I am storing up all the dust I can collect!

Girls~ People are just not getting bfp's around here like they used to! It seems like all of the preggos are going to have their babies, and there won't be anyone on the preggo side anymore. Just those with babies, and us stuck over here in infertility. Remember the "good ole days" when we had like 10 bfps in a month!!!

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Wish I could help us out, we all do!

Here is to run on BFP's for spring time!

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Gina - I definitely don't want to be Catholic (I have a lot of friends who are, hubby too, so there sort of a joke there with me, the Methodist)...but that niiiiice, looooong, rosary would be a great way to shut up the noise in my head.

And also -- I think the symptoms you're describing sound more like anxiety than a direct clomid reaction. Of course, I could be wrong...

Hi Snow. {{{squeeze}}}

Thanks for the continued support y'all. Sometimes, I really don't have the patience. I don't think I'm going to talk to him for the next few days. We'll see what that does. He's been a real $hit since he got back from Florida.

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