Really bummed today. AF is here. Today was the first day I could test & it started. The waiting was so hard & now the disappointment worse. DH was sad to when I told him. & it doesn't help that I am irritated by everything right now & work sucks. Back to start again.

I guess I just needed to vent for a minute.

Jen

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Oh Jen - I'm sorry. It sucks. it certainly doesn't get easier even when we do get answers and solutions. Have you decided to do the IUI in April? That would make 5 of us.

Emily - I know the scheduling is hard cause Dh has a crack of dawn schedule too but it's a small sacrifice in comparison to the sacrifices we make once the child is here. He just has to do it.

Regina - That's the one thing I find so stressful about the IUI is the timing. You got to get the timing right. We are decided to leave for Vegas on Friday at like 5 in the morning. If for some reason AF shows up late I'm screwed. And I will then have to decide to I cancel Vegas or Cancel the IUI. But I'm not going to start freaking out about it just yet...gotta finish this cycle first.

I also still need to get a sitter. since we are going to vegas with my ex and his wife. I know wierd.

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Em-I agree you should splurge for the 30th b-day. It only happens once and you need to enjoy it and DH in NYC.

Besty and Lauren-I'm hoping that both of you have good luck with IUI this next month.

Well DH informed me yesterday that the in-laws are coming for Easter. Which I kind of figured but of course it'll be during O time. So I need to let DH know that I don't really care that his parents will be staying with us but he still needs to give up the swimmers! Or he can be honest with them and they can stay with other family members.

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Good morning ladies, still fuming by SC connection got voted off before his time. Chris was not the best, but the worst either, oh well.

Hope you all have a good day!

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Jen, sorry about AF. It came for me yesterday too and man is it ever kicking my butt.

Buffett - hope you and DH can work out an Easter plan.

Lauren, when are they going to check out your follies? Still hoping for that lefty for ya!

Steph, I know this is kind of a silly, little thing, but two nights ago after dinner, DH asked me to take a walk. We never do that stuff because he's always so exhausted, it's come home from work, eat, sex (maybe) and then sleep. So it was just really sweet to take an hour long walk, then sit outside on the patio and have a beer together. And HE asked ME to do something, so it was like a double surprise. Then last night, we spent about an hour reading together in bed. I miss him sometimes, even when he's right next to me. And I gotta tell ya, the O is back!

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Jen and Emily sorry about AF, and I know all too well how it can kick butt here lately, sorry you are going through that too.

Emily sounds like you two are having some really good quality time together, that is wonderful, hope it continues. That is what I like about when DH is home, we have quality time together to make up for lost time we don't have during the week.

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Lisa, are you taking Clomid? AF is WAYYYYY worse for me this month and I wonder if it is the clomid. I almost couldnt get out of bed today, and wouldn't have come to work except it's my boss's retirement party and I wouldn't miss that for the world.

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This is my second round of Clomid now, and in the second go at it my second month. The first round my periods were light and short, but this time they have been heavy. I have associated this with my m/c and my dr confirmed that too. But let me just say I totally understand about it being bad. Last Friday night and Saturday morning I felt like just staying in the bathroom rather than running in there every 30 minutes. I used both tampon and heavy flow pad and sometimes that was not even enough.

Emily be careful, I found I was a little more should I say closer to being dizzy and light headed. If you feel you are, stop and pull yourself together, don't drive like that! Take care, will be thinking about you today! Have fun at the retirement party, as much as you can.

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Thanks Lisa. I actually took ibuprofen this morning, something I've been trying not to take, but I knew that tylenol wasn't going to cut it. Hopefully our bodies will get better acclimated to the Clomid. I need to start taking it again tomorrow and my doc hasn't called me back yet to let me know if she called in the Rx.

Hope you and DH get some nice quality time together soon!

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Good morning all! I am happy to be back at work, although I have been dealing with a very difficult student all morning. My heart breaks for these kids.

Em~ YAY for o being back! I think af is a bit heavier for me on Clomid too. It still only lasts about 2 days, but it is a heavier flow. Yuck.

They are checkig my follies on Monday morning. I am kind of excited!! I am feeling hopeful right now. I hope this will last!

Buffett~ In-laws can be stressful, I know. Especially when ttc. We have intentionally not told dh's mom about it because she would just add to our stress. She is older, and doesn't understand the whole infertility thing, so we just avoid the conversation.

Jen~ Sorry about af!

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I had some death-AFs last years...to the point where I actually felt like I had the flu...fever and everything. Post m/c (#2), during clomid. So I think it certainly did have an effect.

Em, I'm glad. That sounds JUST like the sort of thing...walks are nice.

Jen - So sorry. Where's my 'CD1 Sucks' blinkie...

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I found this and loved it!



Made me want to cry.

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Steph - this I was trying to get the avatar I use every month on day 1. But photobucket isn't letting me sign in.....Should be going up on Sunday... I can't wait till I can retire it.

Lauren - I think it also makes a difference if they went through it too. My parents are in their 80's and they have been really cool about this which is a SHOCK, cause we don't get along and don't agree on many things. But they tried for several years to have me and 3 miscarriages, and my mom was so tired of doctors and she spotted during her pregnancy with me that she didn't know she was pregnant with me until she was in her 2nd trimester.

oh which reminds me my sister has been a "B" about this whole thing. Anyway i talked to my Dad about it cause she pissed me off again. He said my sister was 13 when my Mom had me and she remembers the miscarriages plus she had her own daughter at 26 weeks. So for her to talk about this with me is too difficult for her.

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By the way, I had a nice breakfast today, three slices of whole wheat toast with a little butter, and orange and a banana, and a glass of ice water (the bottled kind -- we have an Artesia dispenser at work).

I've decided that this whole 'grazing' way of eating is garbage. You just end up eating and thinking about food way too often. I started bringing a loaf of whole wheat bread and I brought a carton of butter (I don't care for margarine) a week or so ago. I went to the store and bought nectarines, oranges, and bananas the other day. Yesterday, for lunch, I had a cut-up nectarine mixed with cottage cheese. Um...and a bean and cheese taco on a flour tortilla. :P And two mountain dew code reds during the day. *sigh* I'm getting better though. And trying to remember my B-12 sublingual tab as often as possible. And it will be time to start my progesterone cream in 11 days (CD16).

Gina and Bec, did I mention that the cream I bought the other day from the whole foods store happened to be on 'the list' in the back of that book? Re: prog cream, I think I'm going to do only the evening dose and start it on CD16, since O is usually on CD15 sometime, then turn through CD29, since that's my normal cycle. Don't want to start it too early and screw up O. A dime sized "dollop" 2xday to neck, face, inner arms, and palms, alternating, and that should be about 30-40mg per day. Yay, I'm excited.

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Lauren-I don't even know how much DH has told his family. We don't see or talk to them often as they have issues we don't care to be involved with. I know we'll figure it....I figure once I flip the calendar to April and the BD dates are circled I can bring it to his attention. It is hard though.

Em-Thanks. Sorry AF is kicking your butt. That worries me about mine now being on clomid. They are heavy already but too bad. It's the cramps that kill me every month. So if that gets worse with a heavier flow I think I'll die. I have just finally adjusted to dealing with the cramps.

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Good morning.

So, I called the reproductive place and got some answers. If I should happen to get my LH surge during the evening then I'm to call them first thing the next morning and go in for a follie check. I feel comfortable with that, it makes sense.

The thing I'm stressing on now is the timing. Between DH getting time away from work and what I'm going to do with DD when I go in for my IUI. It's not like I'm going to know ahead of time when I'm gooing to do the IUI, otherwise I would make arrangements for DD to stay with my mom that day (even if she has to miss school). I could bring DD with me, but then DH will have to stay with her in the waiting room, which means he won't be able to go in with me during the proceedure. Uhh this sucks and I'm stressing big time!

Steph~ Hope the prog cream helps you.

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