Kayla - congrats on Med school!

Regina - You have been such a support to me and so many others on here. I hope you are able to find peace in your life. Can you email someone every once in awhile so we know how you're doing? (((HUGS)))

Steph - interesting you should mention that you think you have a mild form of autism. I heard a story on NPR one day a/b a rare and mild form and b/c of the symptoms, I thought my brother and/or I might have it. Symptoms included intolerance to wheat and dairy and being able to learn foreign languages very quickly. Of course there was other stuff too. PM me if you want to talk a/b it.

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Kayla _Congratulations on med school!! That is great news!!!

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Good morning girls~
DH and I didn't get home until about 11:30 last night from Charlotte, and with going to bed late and the time change, it was SO HARD to get out of bed this morning! I am moving very slowly today. I had 2 crying spells over the weekend at my cousin's house, with the party and finding out that she is pregnant. She is very sweet, and I know was worried to tell me, but she did, and now I can figure out how to move on, again. THEN this morning as I was leaving there were balloons and bows all over my neighbor's mailbox, announcing to everyone that she had a baby boy. YAY for her.

Kayla~ I am so happy for you getting into medical school! Is it close by where you live? When will you start? That is wonderful news! I want to see pics of your new house too!

Gina~ I miss you. I wish I knew what happened... **hugs**

Bets~ Hope your weekend was good. *hugs*

Girly~ Have you tested???

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Oh Lauren - talk about double whammy this weekend. That sucks. How was DH? Did he know you were upset?

Girly - I'm anxious to hear from you soon.


I know that everyone is in the tough part of the roller coaster. But spring is coming and it's a time of new life. Please hang on to any positive feelings you may have. Good things have to come.

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Betsy~ It makes me feel good to hear you being so positive. Yes, thank goodness spring is coming and warm weather is almost here. It does make me feel so much better. At the party on Saturday I snuck upstairs to my room (where dh and I were staying) and just wanted a break. DH came up to find me, and I just started crying. He didn't ask, or say anything, he knew what it was. I cried again Satutrday night, and he just held me. He is so good. We went to dinner on the way back last night, and he asked me if I cried for something specific, or if it was just "overload" and I told him that is what it was. It was just seeing all of the kids playing, cousins being raised together (and I don't have a child in that group) and my cousin being pregnant again, her first month of trying. It was just all so sad for me. I am hopeful and ready to start a new month, but I have to finish this stupid cycle first. I wish af would just go ahead and come, so I can move on to 150mg of clomid.

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Good morning girls. I haven't gone back through all the posts yet, but first - Congrats Kayla! I'm so excited for you. That is such a great accomplishment.

Lauren, I'm sorry you had such a tough time. I can relate totally. Every time we're out anywhere, DH is magnetically drawn to children. We were at blockbuster and he started playing with this little girl in the children's movies. At the grocery store he walked right up to a little boy in a cart and tugged on his little hand. Argh. I know he's just dying for a little one and it's killing me not to have given him one yet.

Besty, I'm glad to see you so positive too. I'm trying to be, but mostly I'm just not paying that much attention to my cycle. I had no idea what CD I was on this morning until I looked at my chart.

What I'm holding onto right now is that things between me and DH are getting so much better. He's cut out the drinking, and he's like a totally different person. He has been so romantic and sweet, and telling me how happy he is. It's weird. I feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, but maybe it won't. Maybe he finally "got it"?

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Lauren - I had a mini breakdown yesterday, too. We were going to my sister's for my niece's birthday party. It was SO hard. I cried the whole way there and while we were there. I didn't even look at my baby nephew.

Betsy - But spring is coming and it's a time of new life. - Oh I hope you're right!

Emily - I am so glad to hear things are getting better for you. It makes life so much easier to live.

Girlygirl...... how are you??

Lisa - Have you had any luck finding an RE that doesn't want both your arms and legs as payment??

Dh and I had a talk in the car and we came to an agreement. I cancelled my endo biopsy. He said he didn't want me to have it in the first place. He doesn't like seeing me go through all of these tests and pain, both physical and emotional and he certainly didn't want to have a part of me snipped off and sucked out to be analyzed. We are just going to live life and what is to be will be. We had great sex Saturday and I realized how good it really can be and that I missed it. So much has been missing from our relationship these past two years and we need to find eachother again. I'm not going to say that we're done trying, but we are done with the monthly anticipation and let down. It's just been too hard on us individually and as a couple.

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Lauren-HUGS. I think we've all been in those shoes and can relate to how hard it is.

Besty-I hope you're right about spring and new life.

Rebecca-I'm glad you and DH talked and came to some agreements as to how to proceed. I'm sort of feeling the same......I'm tired of sex on demand, counting every CD, taking my temp every day, anticipating AF every month. I sort of want a break too and just let it be what its going to be. I'm definitely not temping any more this cycle since O is confirmed and that will give me a little bit of a break. I'm not sure yet about future cycles as I feel that if I do go on clomid next cycle I should still be diligent about charting otherwise it's a waste of time and money. I'm glad that you feel the talk did good for your relationship. I'm sure you guys will be back on track in no time. Isn't it amazing though how much TTC can change your relationship?!

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RAC I know just what you mean, and Forrest and I talked and are going to just go with the flow for now and not go to anymore doctors for now. I say that and next thing you know I am calling and earching for more. But life is too short to be so stressed all the time. It is in God's hands! Good luck to you, I hope you get surprised pleasantly when you least expect it.

Regina, we all go there, come back, you are needed here.

Girlygirl I have my fingers crossed for you, any news?

Lauren sorry!

Betsy & Buffet1, I agree I hope spring brings many BFP's here to those who have been trying a while, they are well deserved!

Emily glad to know you are seeing improvement there, hope it keeps getting better and better.

STephanie - Hugs! Praying for you.

Kayla congrats on mecial school!

I am sure I missed someone, but not on purpose! Maybe the luck of the Irish will be given to us all this St. Patrick's day.

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Gem -- Sorry about the late reply, I had to go right after I wrote to you. I don't think you should feel out of place because you are not actively trying any more. You are still welcome here, we are all rooting for you and your marriage.

Kayla -- Congratulations on med school! That is great news.

Betsy -- AF is due today. I did not test this morning, I was too scared. I'm supposed to test tomorrow morning, don't know if I will chicken out or not. So, we shall see. Last cycle, my AF came on time even with the prometrium, so, I don't know if I should expect the same this cycle or if it will be different. I've been cramping all week pretty bad, and then today its almost non existent. Talk about playing with my emotions.

I'm sorry all, but I have to run...will catch up on the rest of the post later...

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Kayla - Congrats on getting into medical school, thats just awesome. I'm so proud of you.

Girlygirl - I cant wait for you to test, I hope AF stays away.

Rebecca - Im so glad you and your DH were able to sit down and talk through everything. I remember going on for months without talking to DH and it definitely put a strain on our marriage. Im so sorry your niece's birthday party wasn't easy on you. I've been the same way with my niece, when it would get hard I couldnt look at her or hold her. But then I felt bad because it wasnt her fault and I felt bad for taking it out on her.

Lauren - Im glad your DH is so good to you and holds you during the moments you need him most. I think thats awesome when husbands can do that for their wives in their time of need, even if they dont understand. I hope next cycle is much more successful.

Betsy - Its great to hear you so positive about everything, I love it.

Stephanie - I know you miss your DH, hope he comes home soon.

Emily - Glad your trying to stay positive.

Hello everyone else.

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Girly Girl - 15 DPO with no AF looks really good. I hope this is it for you!

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Lauren -- So sorry to hear about your weekend. Betsy was right, double whammy! I hope you feel better. And I hear ya about the time change, it sucks big time.

Betsy -- Can I get some of your enthusiasm?

Emily -- That 's great that you and your DH are doing well. I think that definately needs to be in place before the baby arrives.

Rac -- I'm glad that you and DH have come to an agreement and that you are really happy with it. I know what you mean about the need to reconnect.

Christina -- Thanks, I hope she stays away too, but I don't want to get my hopes up.

Kelly -- Thanks. I'm just afraid it's the progesterone that's making her stay away.

DH wanted me to test this afternoon but I just couldn't. I'm supposed to test tomorrow, but I'm scared!

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Girlygirl - You don't know how badly I wish you had a chart for me to stalk right now.

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Girly-I hope this is it for you. I can't believe you ahven't tested yet. The will power you have right now! Good luck tomorrow if you decide to test.

Well I go tomorrow morning for my progestrone bloodwork. I'll only be 5 DPO but I guess that's better than 3 if I went on CD21 like she told me to. I meet with her then Friday to go over everything. I really hate the 2ww. It never fails as soon as O is confirmed I immediately get depressed and thinking how it's never going to hapen. Those days leading up to O are always filled with anticipation and thinking about how this could be our month. Does anyone else go through this? I know we all have our moments but I just have really felt that I immediately change during the waiting game. UGH. This is when I feel like I don't want to do any more appts, be stuck any more and just want to go back to being oblivious about TTC.

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Em~ I am so happy to hear about you and dh! I think it is wonderful that you are doing so well together!!!

Rebecca~ It is just so hard to have those constant reminders of the fact that everyone else is getting pregnant around you every day. Sorry about your mini breakdown. *hugs*

Buffett~ Thanks for the hugs. **hug you back**

Girly~ WOW, such restraint! POAS GIRLY!!!!

Cristina~ I thank my lucky stars for my dh. I am so thankful for him to have by my side going on this stupid ttc rollercoaster.

A friend of ours just had lab puppies. Dh has ALWAYS wanted a chocolate female lab, and they have ONE. I would love to have another dog, but I am thinking I am putting my wanting to care for a baby, into wanting to care for my pets... like getting another dog. Does that make any sense??? We already have 2 fish, a turtle, a cat and 2 dogs... Would it be ridiculous to get another dog???

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Lauren - Thanks. It sucked pretty bad, but I am feeling a lot better today (except for the fact that my dh is now jobless...... long story)

Anyway, after losing the baby, all we had was Bailey. Then we lost her too. I honestly don't think life would be what it is today if we hadn't brought Tehva home. We have a lot of love to give and if it has to be given to our pets, then so be it. At least we have them to share it with.

Just look at my avatar..... how do you say no to a face like that??

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