Betsy ~I can't wait to see the new kitty!!! Oh he is too cute!!! LOL at the comment of walking the kitties down the street, my MIL does that with one of her cats, but she's [the cat] orange and she [MIL] walks around in bright schischi OC rich wife clothing, LOL. That makes me very sad about the old RESOLVE leader.

Karyn ~ *hugs* I'm sorry for your and DH's loss.

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Well, I think we’re going. To Florida. I know I’m going. I think he’s going too. He's been working it over and over in his head since I broached the subject on Monday. I told him Monday, this option is the last one I'm willing to give us. The whole idea came on so fast, and I still have to get details from my folks and make absolutely sure they’ll go for it, but we (Daniel and I) were just talking about it and we’re both scared to death, but it became pretty obvious pretty fast this is the only snowman’s chance in hell of us surviving – getting out of this town and as far away as possible from the bull$hit. It’s the only way to know… He said something interesting; I was saying something about ‘worst-case-scenario’, not working, get things organized down there, get the house rented, and no one has lost anything as far as the house goes, then he goes his way and I go mine, and he cut me off and said “I don’t want to DO that!” Uh…don’t want to do what? “I don’t want to go my way and you go yours. If we’re going to DO this, we need to DO it.” Pardon me, but isn’t that MY line? I’m trying to stay low-key right now; I don’t want to be disappointed, but the more I ponder it, the more I think this is the right thing for me. Whether he goes or not. There are logistical issues, obviously, but I’m not going to let logistics stand in the way. I don't want to think this to death. I have a magic talent for coming up with a thousand reasons why something wouldn't work. My dad will probably have some helpful ideas. And I’m not talking a long time from now either. In the past day or two, I’ve been thinking of leaving at the beginning of August, rather than the beginning of September. Get my boss to pay me for my vacation I was supposed to take in mid-August (if he’ll go for that). I’ll have to give him a good amount of notice, because it won’t be easy to find someone to fill my shoes. Also, he and his wife are going on vacation towards the beginning of September, so I'll need that time to get things ready. I can prepare it so that not much has to be done for up to two weeks or so; I do that every time he or I go on vacation, so I’m practiced now. The only reason to stay later, til the end of August is money. It would put money in the bank. But a paycheck is a paycheck; so we get them there instead of here. Is it worth the insanity? I don't think so. It’s not like a month’s worth of living expenses would drain me dry. Gotta sell the truck too. The two people who’ve stopped by in the past two weeks out of nowhere and asked about it don’t seem to be coming through, so I guess I’ll put an actual ‘For Sale’ sign on it. Hell, it’s not even running. And I’m not sure where my grandmother’s car is; I don’t think anyone has it, so there’s that. I’m babbling – like I said, logistics, but who cares? I need out of here, out of this job, out of this town, out of the whole damn situation. Worst case, I hate it, do whatever to get the house rented, and go somewhere else.

None of us wanted her to buy a house...her health...it was only a little over a year ago...remember, when he went to go help her unpack. Maybe the universal reason for it all was to have that house waiting for us...or at least for me.

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I actually ran some numbers and staying that extra month would only give me a few hundred extra, with all my expenses here. Not worth it.

I talked to my dad for a few minutes and he was like '...uh...oh...okay...how soon?' I don't think he was expecting it. He said 'what are you going to do in Florida?' Get jobs. Go to the beach. Start a new life. Then, he said something funny that I didn't remember, about leaving the city, when I left to go to school (2001) he reminded me that he'd said it was my chance to make a break for it with my new career, etc. Anyway, they don't even own the house yet; they have to go back down in a few weeks to get the Will through probate, etc. We have a lot of furniture. I have furniture, her house is full of furniture, my parents house is full of furniture...somewhere there would have to be a storage space anyway. Maybe I'll have them take pictures when they are down there so I can see what's there, etc.

Like I said before, I don't want to think it to death. At the same time, we're talking about seven weeks, so some thinking does have to be done.

I'm just going to picture the beach and the sand and the waves over and over...

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Steph, I think that is a great idea! But you may want to leave your H there and if he really wants to make things work he will get to Florida. Kind of like that saying "If you love something set it free"

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*eek*

I just started contacting professionals in the jewelry industry trying to get some leads on the area. *ack*

Lisa, thanks. Always. Surreal at this point. I don't know how it's going to go. He's about as free as free gets right now though, other than me hanging up on him if he calls me...he's on his own. What's going to happen when the time comes, who knows. Whatever I feel in my heart I guess. There's a lot of details I'm refusing to worry about. I'm a habitual detail worrier and planner and organizer...I'm going to try to fly by the seat of my pants a little more with this.

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Okay my RESOLVE meeting starts in an hour and a half. My heart is pounding and I keep running to the bathroom I didn't mention where I'm heaving the meeting did I?

The restaurant/bar that I "frequent", has a pool room, that they rent out for private parties, there is only one pool table in there now, and a small bar, so we put a bunch of chairs in there. I put balloons in there too. Trying to make it a happy place. =) I figure whoever wants to can stick around after the meeting finished at 3:30 and have a drink with me. i bet the director at Resolve won't be so happy about that. I'll probably be fired by next month. You know you drink alot when an owner of a bar gives you a room for free.

Rebecca - beautiful tattoo and good count.

Mel - Zorro is a LOVER. not like Luna who hissed at you....btw she is still a little snobby B*tch, but she's my baby and she only loves me. Zorro loves everyone.

Here they are with their Daddy while he talks on the phone with his Father. http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h2...s/S5000711.jpg

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Betsy - You'll do just fine! Remember to breathe and it will all work out. Your fur babies look awfuly comfy on Carlos' lap!! I've found that male cats are generally more affectionate and girl cats are just bitches. Mine is, at least!

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they are no longer on his lap....look what they are doing now...Can you tell I am sooooooooo in love.

http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h2...s/S5000708.jpg

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Thanks girls for your kind words. It has been a long weekend. Glad it's over. My nephew is coming tomorrow & staying for a few nights. I need some kid-fun! I have been looking forward to his visit for over a month!

The best news of all..............AF showed up today! I have never been so happy to see that old hag!

Rebecca - Numbers looked great, praying for you big time! I have to go check out the picture thread & see your tatoo!

Betsy - Good to hear from you! You will be great today!

Steph - Florida just might be exactly what you need.

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Karyn-Really sorry to hear about your loss. But VERY excited to see AF showed today for you! Back on the TTC train. Yahoo.

Rebecca-I will be stalking you even though I see you're not charting. Hope your 2ww has a positive outcome!

Steph-FL sounds like a great idea. Hope it all works out for you and you get that fresh start you deserve.

Betsy-Glad to see you on and so excited about your first mtg tonight. Hope it goes well and can't wait for you to post the details.

Hi Lauren-Hoping AF comes soon for you and your donor. Looking forward to you getting to move forward!

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Meeting went fabulous. Just got home. A handful of us stayed and had dinner. One came home with me and we are going to go back out and watch the Laker/Celtics game. One of the girls in the group had a D & C on Friday,(her 4th) talk about emotional. I'll fill in more details later.

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Rebecca-Thinking positive thoughts for you! Looks like excellent timing this time around! And great tatoo!

Karyn-Yay for AF and being back to TTC! Sending you lots and lots of babydust!

Betsy-So glad your meeting went so well! I knew they would love you! GO LAKERS!

Steph-Sounds like a great plan to me!

Lauren-Has AF shown for either you or your donor yet? So glad for you that you're on summer break now and get to enjoy some time with the kids!

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Hope everyone had a good weekend, never long enough if you ask me.

Betsy those are adorable little babies!

Steph, do what is best for you, only you know what that is.

Kayrn, hope things calm down for you this week, thinking of you.

Lauren have had you on my mind too. Hope things are going well.

Lots of work to do, and we are having a retirement party for two leaving us the end of the month. I made pimento cheese and need to make my sandwiches at lunch for it, it starts at 3.

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Karyn - Thats great that AF finally showed. I'm looking forward to you TTC again!

Betsy - I'm glad that your meeting went well... sounds like you really clicked with several of the women. I'm sure it was emotional... its good that there's a medium for people who need all the support they can get. Your kitties are too adorable.

Steph - FL does sound like a good plan but I was surprised to hear that DH might be going with you since it sounded like he was one of the things you wanted to get away from. But like Lisa said, only you know what is best for you. Keep us posted.

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Betsy ~ Glad your meeting went so well. I love your siggy, it makes me laugh.

Steph ~ I think you are making a good choice. Yay for Florida!

Rac ~ Pretty tattoo!

Lauren ~ I think of you often, wanted to say "hi!"

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Betsy ~ Love, love the furbabies! I wanna hear more about the meeting!

Karyn ~ Yay for AF! We're almost cycle buddies, still waiting for AF to show, but have been spotting since about Wednesday of last week, I'm sure she'll show any day this week.

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