I cannot believe it is June ALREADY! COME ON SUMMER!!!!

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Thanks everyone for all the prayers and concern for my Aunt and family. Things are still looking good for her, looks like she will have a full recovery. That was a close call.

Betsy my Uncle finally got home from work, that is when she was found.

So much drama still going on with me so forgive me for not posting too much to each person.

Emily I think going to see family is great, and be happy for your brother, I know it is hard but you are strong and will handle it great I am sure. Big Hug.

Mari so sorry AF is here.

Lauren so sorry about your parents, all I know to say is sorry and wish there were words to make this easier for you.

Snownie thanks. and yes prayers are answered and miracle do happen.

Hello to everyone Buffet, Jo, Gina, Stephanie, and etc....

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Lias~ Thank you. I am glad your aunt is doing ok.

Bets~ Yes, both of my parents know about my ivf, although I don't get into much conversation with my dad about it. It really isn't something shocking that they are getting divorced, and my mom is the one persuing this. My dad has issues with alcohol, and has all of my life. Mom has always kind of "protected" me from the issues as much as she could, but I have always known. I am an only child. My parents seperated when I was in high school for a couple of years, but got back together when I was in college. They have a house together, but my mom has lived seperate from him in another town for the past 5 years or so. They have always gone to stay with one another over the weekends. I am VERY worried about my dad, moreso than my mom. She is very independant, and just wants to be happy. My dad lives in a small town on the coast, and doesn't do anything except work and drink. I don't know how he will handle this. I worry he will drink himself to death. It is so sad... I don't blame my mom AT ALL because I know she just wants to be happy and free of his drinking binges, but I worry for my dad because I think he probably has some depression issues on top of the alcohol... Being an only child I feel so much responsibility for making sure they will both be ok, and I am too far (3 1/2 hour drive) to see them or offer much support and right now with all I have going on in my life I just don't feel like I can emotionally deal with it all...

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Happy anniversary to me...happy anniversary to me. :P

Today is a year since I joined conception-tips....I never dreamed I would become so attached to a bunch of hormonal women on a website. So much has happened in the last year. Alot of us have gotten our BFP's and already holding our babies in our arms and a handful are in "waiting" zone in the preggo side and the rest of us waiting to cross over. Even though I don't talk to everyone all the time, you all are in my thoughts at different moments.

Lauren - wow so yeah they've been on the outs for a while. This may sound harsh by your Dad will have to hit bottom in order to snap out of it. He's a grown man and has to be responsible for his own actions. Good for you Mom for wanting to move on. Having been surrounded with alcoholism my whole life and dealing with it in very small doses now with my ex it's no fun to be around. You have your own marriage and family to focus on.

Lisa - oh your poor Uncle that has got to be scary. Have they thought of those lifeline things? I forgot what they are called but my parents have it they have it around their wrists all the time. And they can push a button if they fall or something.

Good luck to everyone to get some spring babies in here....and remember to tell your DH's to keep the family jewels cool...counts tend to go down in the summer months!!

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Yikes! The CD13 O is NOT good news. DH was out of town and we didn't get to BD until last night. I hate to think that I took clomid this month for no good shot. I normally stop temping until CD6 or 7, but we were in D.C. and I didn't bring my therm...

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Lauren- I´m sorry about your parents, try to talk to your father as often as you can, so he won´t get lonely.

Betsy- Happy CT anniversary!!

Roma- Im sorry about your bad timing, but you never know. My RE told sometimes temping is not really that accurate...

I went to the RE today, he did an ultrasound and foung a 16mm follie there, completely out of place in my cycle. He said my body is totally out of sync, if i were to ovulate, and (miracle) if that egg was fertilized, there would be no lining for it to hold on to, and thats probably another reason we cant get pregnant.. ( add it to the list, buddy)
So, he gave me MORE BCP, a shot to definitely get rid of that follie, and recommended ovarian stimulation and IUI for my next cycle. If and only if, i dont have crazy follies about to pop on CD3.
Im not crazy about the IUI, and DH talked about it, and were doing as far as 4, with a break every 3 months.
Im afraid of the emotional rollercoaster, truly afraid.
So its one more month on BCP..

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Roma-It looks like you got timely BD in two and three days before O so I'd say you're covered! G/L!

Lauren-(((hugs)))

Betsy-Happy one year ct anniversary!!!

Mari-Sorry about one more month on bcp. I hope the dr is able to regulate you so sperm can meet egg and make a nice home for nine months!

Lisa-I hope things slow down for you soon. We're thinking of you.

Gina-Where are you? I miss you!!!

Hey, isn't Dani back on the ttc track? Come back, Dani!

Heidi-Don't feel bad about your FSH level, it is, after all, in the good range. If it's any comfort, mine was 6.3 back in October and I'm 32.

Em-Still thinking about you and hoping you're being pampered by Juan.

Steph-How're you these days?

I've had no luck understanding the stupid insurance system. They made me even more confused than I already was. So I'm just gonna send DH on his merry way to his primary care dr to play it safe and get his own referral. That way he can get the elusive cup that nobody at the lab seems to know about. The idiot at Quest Diagnostics even had the nerve to laugh at me! grrrrr

I've had this nagging pain in my lower left abdomen all day and praying it's just a cl cyst. Anyways, I'm counting down the days until AF shows so I can get to superovulating!!!

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Snowie - I'm sorry the SA is becoming such a project.

Mari - I'm so sorry about the news you got. I wish I could tell you that if you go the IUI route that it will be easier cause it won't. The actual IUI is a piece a cake. It's all the before and after that are difficult. That's crazy about having a follie that size so early in your cycle. I think taking a few months in between each one is a good idea. If I had done that I wouldn't be in the position I'm in now. But I truly do believe that the IUI will increase your chances alot. It sucks you have to do another cycle of BCP - what is that supposed to accomplish anyway??

Well I did the mother hen thing today and checked on my chickies.

Regina is doing okay, she's had family in town. When I called she was with her 4 month old nephew, watching him sleep. She sounded good. Unfortunately there was a death in her distant family so that's why there was family in town. I gave her the updates around here. She should be back next week.

I checked in on Em too, Her beta was at 9 and thankfully her thyroid is at 1.2. Her crazy stupid ass dr wanted to put her on clomid starting today. I told her that was a bad idea. I think she agreed and she'll probably wait a cycle.

I'm so exhausted tonight. yuck. Jonathan had his 2nd round of auditions for the musical so hopefully we'll know soon what his part is.

Tomorrow I have a busy crazy day, I have an eye doctor appt that I've been putting off since TTC, then Jonathan's 1st play off game then a bridal shower...and somewhere between there I need to clean the house and do my hair.

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Ok ladies i need to vent...today when i get home i have a letter from Health Net i'm thinking its the paper referral to go to the RE but no its a denial letter stating at this time my referral cant be granted. I'm so pissed i dont know what to do, but i do knw first thing monday morning i will be calling seeing why they denied it in the first place. I was so looking fwd to going to the RE. I definitely cant afford to go if we have to pay out of our pockets, its bad enough they only cover 50% but i willing to take the 50% and pay the other 50 out of the pocket. Has any been denied? I thinking maybe it was denied because my reg ob/gyn didnt put the referral through my reg dr did. If anyone knows anything plus help. I'm so down right now its bad enough to have to go through this problems ttc.

Ok i reread the letter with dh and i guess i just freak out when i saw denial and pretty much its denied b/c my ob/gyn didnt request it the primary dr did so i will be calling monday to have it straighted out. Thx for listening.

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Brandy - I've been through the insurance nightmare. You just need to keep pushing forward and do appeals if you need to. My first 2 drs refused to put in a request. My PCP put in the referall and I got the same letter that I needed a fertility work up by a "fertility specialist" before I went to an RE. So that's what I did. I did 2 unmedicated IUI's then he referred me to the RE. You need to stay on top of it even if it means making calls every day.

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Brandy - keep pushing them, especially the ob. My ob didn't think i needed a specialist but eventually I got him to agree so at least CD3 test, SA, and i got a referral for free. I had to pay for additional ultrasound/ consult out of pocket.

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Jo-Sorry about the timing. But you just never know....may be this will be your month. Those swimmers can live 48-72 hours so you never know.

Snowie-Thanks for the input on the FSH. I know it's still within range but was hoping for better. But what can we do right?

Lauren-I agree with betsy about your dad needing to hit rock bottom. May be if your mom really goes through with it he'll see what his drinking has done to himself and his family. Hang in there!

So I haven't started using OPKs yet this cycle and trying to decide if I want to. For whatever reason they make me even more neurotic thinking we'll miss it and I put more pressure on DH for BDing. When I don't use them I feel better about waiting for AF. But thought I should use them because of going to the RE this month. But I know I O about CD16-18. And this month we'll be in Vegas for O so I know we'll BD. I kind of want to just let it go for this cycle but don't want the RE to give me a hard time like the OB did when I didn't use them. Sorry just thinking out loud I guess.

Hi to everyone. Hope you're having a good weekend.

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Hello everyone
Betsy and Tracey i will keep pushing b/c obviously something is wrong if i'm not conceiving. First thing monday morning i will be bugging the heck out of someone thats for sure.
Hope all is having a great weekend.

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Hi Girls~
Today has been a really nice day with dh. I slept in, and we stayed around the house most of the day. We did run some errands, and I got everything I needed for a wedding shower I am throwing at school on Monday. I talked to my mom and told her I just cannot handle dealing with her and dad's divorce drama right now, and not to tell me about anything unless I ask. She said she completely understood, and she knew it was an emotional time for me. We'll see how long that lasts.

Tonight we're eating dinner at home, and we're going to watch When Harry Met Sally. That is one of my all time favorite movies!

I still have not had a +opk this month... I am wondering if I am going to be annovulatory, or if I am just o'ing later.... It is driving me nuts.

Bets~ Yes, I do understand my mom wanting to move on... I dont blame her at all... but you know it is still hard. How was Jonathans game today?

Mari~ I called my dad today and didnt mention that I knew anything was going on, and he didnt mention it either...
Hmmm... that is odd about your cycle. I am sorry you are scared. I know how hard it can be. **hugs**

Snowie~ **hugs** to you too!

Heidi~ Thank you!

Gina~ I miss you!

Em~ Thinking of you!

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Brandy-That's the same insurance company DH has who is giving us the run around. I hope you get it all figured out and let me know how to navigate their stupid system!

Betsy-Hope you had some time to relax during your busy day! Thanks for the update on our girls.

Em-Yeah, that doc really is a crazy stupid ass for wanting to put you on clomid when you're going through this!!! I'm glad you're not listening to him!

Gina-Glad you're enjoying time with your family. Come back soon!

Lauren-Sounds like you had a great day! Good for you for letting your mom know that she shouldn't stress you out even more with the drama. You need to concentrate on you right now. Hope you get your +OPK soon!

Heidi-Yes, we're doing all we could pushing forward with the specialist. Which for me is currently on temporary hold depending on how soon I can figure this insurance crap out. I'm sure those a$$holes do it on purpose.

So I'm reading this book called "A Few Good Eggs." Not sure how I feel about it though I have gotten a few chuckles out of it. A lot of it is warning women to not wait until their biological clock is ticking at like 100 decibles. Kinda too late for the likes of me and tell me something I don't know. Sheesh.

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Brandy ~ Sorry about the insurance hassle. IKWYM! Hopefully you can get your referral soon.

Snowie ~ Put that book down! You have lots of good eggs, and...it only takes one! (unless you want fraternal twins of course)

Betsy ~ You are always on the go woman! I'm glad Jonathan is doing so good with baseball. Thank you for checking on Emily and Regina. I was really wondering/worrying about Regina.

Emily ~ Hmm.....I agree with the others, I would think (in my non-professional opinion) your body would need to regather itself and heal before jumping back on Clomid. Again, I'm so sorry about your loss. *hugs*

Lauren ~ I'm so sorry about your parents. Your mom sounds like she is really there for you though, and understands. I hope your dad is not in denial about it all, maybe he just wants to protect you. Does he know your mom told you? I'm glad you are getting to spend some quality time with your DH. *o-dust!*

Jo ~ Sorry about the seemingly bad bd timing, but keep your hopes up, it can definately still work out this cycle!

*~*Babydust to ALL!*~*

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It's 10:27 pm and I am finally home relaxing and having my 2nd strawberry martini.....LIFE IS GOOD. I need a blinkie that says that.

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