Mmmmm...You're right. Keep telling me that. *breathing and not thinking*

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Steph- Just remember, you couldn't be going to a safer place- Near Daddy. It'll all be OK, you won't be alone and your Dad won't let you be destitute, I promise .

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I'm LEAVING Daddy, Rhea! They are HERE, they won't be down THERE for a few years when mom retires and they move to that house. *eek* That's why he's nervous...he's never really had me away from him before, not completely.

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Steph~ Calm, deep, cleansing breaths. If this REALLY wasn't the right decision, you'd feel it in your gut. I know this will end up being the best thing for you. (((BIG HUGE HUGS!!!)))

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Okay, trying not to completely panic. AF is here, CD 25. Usually it'll last a few days and i can wear a panty liner the whole time. Today i stayed home cause I was depressed and just didnt want to deal with the outside world. Had horrible cramps and lower back pains on Sunday, nothing yesterday and today, it seemed every time I moved I felt a jolting pain. I spotted during BD last night and this morning but nothing on the liner, just when i wiped. I was doing my usual hourly Q-tip check and nothing until about 4p.m then it was like mount rushmore, thought I busted a vein or something. The back pain is more intense than the cramps. Went to Target to get real pads and drugs, after I checked out I couldn't walk, I just sat where they served the popcorn. Called my ex who drove me home, so embarassing!

I've changed my pad like 3 times and it is so much, I thought for a second it was coming out of my butt too! The cramps have subsided, but the back pain is even worst. (I honestly don't know if the 2 are related) I just took a shower, and when i got out Carlos was dressed, he wants to go to the hospital.

which of course over my dead body. I don't even have an OB anymore since I've been dealing with stupid RE's the last 2 1/2 years. And I'm certainly not going to an emergency room to be violated. now keep in mind because my AF's are so light and I dont' usually have cramps, I'm probably exaggerating and this is probably supposed to be normal, but it's not normal for me.

I know the change pad hourly rule. But other than that what really would be the purpose of going to the hospital? I know it's late and most of you are probably in bed. Urg I hate this. Okay I'm going to put a heating pad on my back.

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Betsy - I'm not sure what to tell you. If the bleeding doesn't get any better, I would call someone - even if it is your RE - to get checked out. Take care of you.

Lauren - How are things going on your end? Are all systems a 'go'?

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Betsy I would call your RE today, not wanting to scare you but up until I had fibroids I was like that with Elmo, and then boom one day I flooded but with no pain. After they remove the fibroids by laser a year or two later I started cramping and having heavy periods. I have had several doctors tell me that comes with age. I know there is no comfort, and we are all different. to be safe get checked out. Waiting to hear from you.

Kayrn missed you yesterday......

Lauren tell us what is going on with you?

Missy what did you find out?

Irene missing you here too.....

Hello to everyone else, I know I am forgetting people but for the life of me I can't think this morning at all. Need to get busy working but still have 30 minutes before my scheduled work time.

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Lisa - thanks for thinking of me... nothing much going on here 2DPO and the waiting is already killing me.

Betsy - I hope the pain and bleeding has let up... if not I agree that you should at least call the doctor and see if he thinks you should come in.

Steph - even though you're moving further away from your dad just remember he's still only a phone call away. I think you need to start packing and doing mindless things to try to keep the panic away.

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Hi girls!

Betsy - How are you doing today? Any better? Did you call the doctor? I think Rebecca is right at least a phone call.

Lisa - It must be one of those mornings! I typed my name & password wrong when logging in here & FF! I am actually leaving in a little bit to go buy some bushes! I still have a few things I want to google before I go though.

Irene - Only 2DPO? I am usually by now, either making up or making too much out of symptoms. Looks like you got awesome BD in this cycle! Fingers crossed!

Rebecca - How has school been? I still can't believe your almost done.

Steph - When you start to get stressed & overwhelmed, think of the nice warm air, the smell of the ocean & the big, fat margarita in your hand

Melissa - Nice wheels! Great job on the 3lbs!

So I don't know what to make of my chart again this month. I thought I O'd Mon or Tues & now my temped dropped this morning? My CM is dried up & I I don't feel any O symptoms anymore. This is really starting to piss me off. Then I wanted to get a BD in last night just to be covered & DH picked a fight with me. He was so crabby, there was no way I wanted to get naked with him. I don't tell him when it's O time either so he didn't know. Ughh is it too early to have a drink?

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Oh Kayrn take it out at the nursery shopping for your bushes. Sorry this cycle is confusing, but you could have O'd late. I don't blame you for not wanting to BD last night, I can't be like a machine. I have to be in the mood and in the right frame of mind too. Hang in there. Crossing you are covered and those are just whacky temps.

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So, I know I haven't been posting hardly. I am coming to a point where I don't want to do this TTC thing anymore, so I've been avoiding the TTC boards. I took the Femara this cycle on CD5-9. Had the u/s on CD11 and apparently it was too early b/c I had 1 follie on the left at 8-9mm and 1 on the right at 9mm and a bunch of smaller ones. She said that taking the Femara late pushed me back. They wanted me to come back Thurs (tomorrow CD14, my normal O day) for a repeat u/s. Well, as fun would have it.... this morning I got a +OPK.... kinda ruins my u/s for the am.... and what's worse, DH and I BDed 2x last night b/c I wasn't thinking I would O until Fri/Sat!! UGH!! I am really praying that he can give a decent sample tomorrow if we have to go in and do the IUI then. I'm waiting for the RE to call me back and tell me what she wants me to do. I'll update shortly.

Betsy- I am waiting to hear how you're doing. I hope you're feeling better!

Irene- Hang in there girl! I hate the 2WW too.

Lauren- GL with the IVF this time around! I'll be stalking you.

Steph- Still praying for you hun. Everything is going to be fine! *HUGS*

Missy- GL this cycle. This is our 3rd round of Femara/IUI, I bet my RE will want to move onto injectibles if this doesn't work. I'll be stalking you!

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Steph- OMG, so sorry. I guess I was assuming incorrectly about where your Dad is. Everything will be fine, though. Irene's right. This is all for the better, remember. You know what's in store for you if you stay put, you are running toward a NEW destiny now.

Stacy- Bummer. Hang in there and Good Luck!

Betsy- I agree to taking care of yourself. Please check in and KUP.

Karyn- Sorry things are so confusing with you cycle. Darn DH's I hate it when they make trouble around O time. You'd think we'd have them better trained by now, right?

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Stacey - I replied to your mail.

Karyn - I don't remember how long your cycles were prior to your little break and FF only shows 2. When was an average O time for you?? I'm thinking you're still a bit early for O. Maybe it will happen today and you can bd tonight?? Maybe pick up some cheap opks??

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Betsy ~ I’m going to be texting you really soon…

Karyn ~ Thanks! Today is my official weight day and I lost more weight. I’m starting to be optimistic again that I will fit into this dress! I’m sorry you had a fight with DH, that has happened to us to a couple of cycles this year. Erg.

Irene ~ I’ve been meaning to tell you, nice chart!

Stacey ~ Hmmm, that is what I would have expected too with your O date. Let us know how it works out...

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Mel - holy smokes - congrats on the weight loss! You are off to a great start and I'm sure you'll look smokin' in that dress in no time! Thx about my chart - I love how clomid makes it look so pretty

Stacey - even with a positive OPK there is still a chance your appt tomorrow AM will be b4 you actually O. I hope DH's count isn't messed up by your BDathon... whats up with BDing 2x when its not O time... you're making the rest of us look bad LOL!

Karyn - I agree with Rebecca about getting some OPKs... I would go batty if all I had was CM to rely on pre-O!! Sorry about your fight with DH - I think they have PMS more often than we do and they seem to have radar for O time...

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Mel your are so inspiring keep up the good work. Hope youa re in that dress in no time.

Stacy know how you feel hang in there girlie. Big hug!

Fingers crossed for Irene and Kayrn.

Claire reading your post about training DH's and seeing your warrior made me bust out laughing. I thought I bet she could train him with no problem.

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