Thinking good thoughts today Jen! Have you had a scan with the new machine?

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Hello everyone...

Well, we made it 24 weeks today. I had my first betamethasone shot today (and man did it hurt - not the actual shot but when she injected it it burned!). My doctor stopped by and said it is not uncommon to have some contractions after the shot - in the evening. I have been drinking water like crazy to stay hydrated and avoid contractions. They have both have been moving around like crazy...and the crazy thing is I can feel her moving more then him. She is always kicking. She said both are growing. Abigail seems to be measuring a little behind - but the tech said it is hard to measure accurately with no fluid. Andrew is measuring right on target and the doctor said he looks great!

We also had another scan and there is still low to no fluid. Guess we need to give the resident a lesson in using the portable scanning machine. They kept telling me they could see some fluid for Abigail. But today they saw nothing.

We are trying to be positive - but they are not painting a pretty picture for Abigail. I feel guilty thinking the worst - but part of me feels like I need to prepare for the worst...not even sure how to handle all of this? Not to mention the guilt I feel praying that she can last long enough to give her brother a chance at life. Isn't that so awful????? And then there is this part of me that can't even imagine something happenning to her. I pray every night and bless her with Holy Oil and that part of me just believes that she is going to be okay...is that denial???? Hopefully both will be content and happy right where they are until 4/30 - which is 28 weeks...I can get greedy now that we have made it to 24 weeks.

I am thinking about starting a blog...Sarah's idea was a good one - it will give me a break from talking on the phone. God am I tired of hearing my phone ring...some days I keep a list of people to call back and as I call them back I check them off. Even email is getting tiresome!

Thanks again for your prayers...I will try to keep updating!

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Oh I am happy to hear from you! I dont think it is being in denial to believe that Abigail will be ok. You are her mother, and I think it is only right for you to have faith that she will be fine. I totally believe it is possible! It is wondeful that she is kicking so much, and you are able to feel them both!! ((hugs)) Update us when you can! I pm'ed you...

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I think you are very very strong. I am praying for your children.

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Jen, I dont think you are in denial at all. Your girl has proven to be a fighter, I am praying for her to keep it up. Can they do amnio infusions now?

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Jen, I think we'd all be surprised if you WEREN'T all over the map.

This is different, but it's the only frame of reference I have: When my goddaughter that I raised had cancer (she was 6; 2 years, 1 month, and 26 days of chemo...), for a while I was tortured by thoughts of her death and funeral, etc. Finally, after months, I allowed myself to think through it, a funeral. I planned it out in my head. I chose music and flowers, and all that. Amazingly, after I gave myself permission to think it, it gave me peace about a funeral itself, and it didn't torture me any more. It's not the same as what you are talking about, but it's all I have for you -- I've never been where you are.

You know, if you go back in this thread, I said a while back, if that precious girl does have to go, what a profound gift to give you, her daddy, and her brother; what an amazing soul to battle on as far as she can to give him the best chance she can.

I will continue to hope for two healthy miracles...Abigail and Andrew. The names are beautiful. I'm hoping and praying...

And the blog is a great idea. {{{hugs}}}

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Jen-You are allowed to have all the different feelings you need to. You prepare and think the best way that gets you through! As for me, I think you have two little fighters there! I will continue to pray for continued success! You are one amazing woman, Jen! Your little ones are so lucky to have a such a strong mom! I really admire your strength. Please let us know if we can do anything to help you pass time!
Oh, and a blog is a great idea! I bet that would take some of the heat off from people calling too!

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Jend you are not in denial at all, but I too have this feeling Abby is going to surprise everyone and turn out to be the President of the US one day. Both Abigail and Andrew will be happy healthy babies, I know it, God is good. Whatever happens know you have people praying for you all. Hang in there, you are beating the odds and will continue to do so. The blog is a wonderful idea, then you can just update there and tell everyone who calls to check it, you need your energy and focus on your babies.

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Jen-How can you not have all these different thoughts? I think both of your babies are strong and going to be ok. You are a strong woman. My thoughts and prayers are with you and the little ones.

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Jen- How is the hospital in terms of the NICU? I was at a very good place, and they had quite a few little survivors in the unit. Multiple born at 23 weeks, one that was born at 22. All were thriving. Abigail and Andrew have already beaten the odds by just making it to this point, so I think they are going to give it all they've got to pull through!

I'm praying hard for you all!

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Jen - I'm so happy you made it to this milestone and I will keep praying for you all every day.

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Jen just checking in and I am praying for you ALOT! ((((((BIG SQUEEZY hugs!!!!))))))

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Jen, I am so glad you made it to 24 weeks!!! Keep up the good work momma!

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Jend, I am praying for you and your little ones.

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Jen-just checking in, you made it to your HUGE milestone. I am continuely praying for you and your little ones. I don't think it is denial, you are a strong women. I think you have two strong fighters. You are beating the odds. Your doing an incredible job. The blog idea sounds like a wonderful idea for your family and friends.

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Yay! So happy to hear things are going okay. You're almost there!

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Jen-like everyone said, it is normal to have all these conflicting thoughts and hopes. Whatever you need to do or think that keeps you strong for your babies is all that matters. Yay for making it to the 24 week mark and know that you have so many people praying for you and your babies. Abigail and Andrew are very special children because of all you and Dh have been through to bring them here, *hugs*

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jen thinking of you and the little ones. hoping everything is still status quo.

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