Here's to that darned groundhog and his shadow. I'm ready for spring!

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Stephanie - that is wonderful news!!! Praying for you guys!

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Thanks Cassie! How are you feeling after your appointment? Sorry to hear that the bugger wasn't totally gone.

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Cassie ~ Ditto Stephanie's question.

Stephanie ~ How are YOU feeling today???

Mel- I'm feeling pretty good. I've been having some mild cramping, which is hopefully a good sign! It's tough because the meds I'm on right now can mimick early pregnancy symptoms, so I'm trying not to read too much into it, but stay hopeful and excited at the same time .

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Stephanie/Melissa...I feel fine...the pulsing pain of the cyst is a constant reminder right now. I have really just been enjoying my dh and Rhylee this whole time and not putting any thought into it. I won't be doing IUI the first cycle (I don't think)...I wanted to try a couple of medicated cycles on our own (with monitoring), then maybe a couple IUI cycles then I plan on stopping...if it happens it happens if not...I have a WONDERFUL little girl who will be spoiled beyond belief Well as much as we can. LOL!

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Cassie - That is a great way to look at it. After all you've been through, you know just how special it is to have Rhylee. Not all parents (or very many really) have that. One thing about IF, it sure makes you look at things differently.

Steph -

Well, my Dr office has still not called about the approval for the Lupron. The longer I wait, the more I have to think which is starting to be annoying. It's like I have a ping pong game going on in my head trying to figure out what I think is the best thing to do.

I keep asking myself why I feel uncomfortable with the decision of my Dr to put me on Lupron. I keep wondering if maybe I'm just still upset with finding out I'm going to have to wait or because I don't want to deal with some super psycho bitch meds. I also am wondering if maybe I'm just not comfortable with his asst I keep talking to when I would rather talk to my Dr himself.

So now I've decided to ask myself what would be better for the baby, should there ever be one anyway. I'm actually thinking now that having an extra 6-12 months before being able to conceive will give us some time to get caught up, fix up the house some, and have some quality time together. We should find out within 4 mos or so about the social security. We'll either get that money or I'll get a job (somewhere) and I'll have the added comfort of knowing what's going on there. I don't just want a baby to have one, I want to be able to take care of one too.

About the endo itself, if I wait 3 mos trying to get pg, it will not go away & I may have to do some kind of treatment after a baby is born which would be harder for everyone involved. The Lupron has a chance of killing some off which might make it easier down the line. If I ask for a second opinion, it may take awhile to get in to see another Dr which is just wasted time sitting here worrying some more. I can't believe how many emotions are involved in this & how hard every decision is. I'm tired of worrying about everything & having to go through all of this. I had to get all these thoughts out somewhere before they drove me insane!

Anyway, Happy February to All!!!

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Here's to some BFP's in February!!

Stephanie - So excited that everything went well! Fingers crossed!

Kelli - Good luck with your decision. Maybe call and ask if you could speak to your dr for a minute. I know some offices say that you have to make an appt. or just talk to a nurse but it doesn't hurt to try.

Cassie - You really have a great attitude!

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Karyn - I wouldn't even mind making an appt to talk to him. It's easier getting it all out in person. I just feel bad asking to "not talk" to his asst. She's really nice & I'm not sure why I don't completely like her. I think it's more that I like him so I want to talk to him, not anyone else. They're too big of decisions to make w/o talking them all out.

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I second that Karyn!

Cassie - You are so sweet!

Kelli - ttc can be so questioning. (is that a word) if you do this now, or wait, would you of just wasted time, should I have done this, would it make a difference. Ok I'll just not try, and then three months later wish you would of just tried. It's so frusterating. And the problem is, there probably isn't a right or wrong answer. Just go with your gut. I used to get down about all of this, thinking why didn't we test DH earlier. But then I think well atleast were more ready now, we'll appriecate it more. As I quote Dave Matthews, "funny the way it is, when you think about it" "someone walks 5 miles to school while the others dropping out" I'm sure that doesn't make sense to anyone but me, but I like it.

And by the by, DH is doing great, I've been trying not to annoy him about the drinking, and last night he talked about not drinking this week. And staying on the pills, the best part is him talking about his glow in the dark pee. And I forgot how much difference my cm is when I take EPO. Looking forward to al-anon this week, and more workouts.

4 weeks, and I'll be in Phoenix!!!!

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Kelli ~ I wouldn't worry about hurting your doctor's assistant's feelings, I'm sure she knows/understands that some patients would rather talk directly with the doctor.

Mary ~ FB makes DH's urine glow? Or just bright yellow like taking a B complex????

Mary - You said it all exactly. I don't think whatever way I go is going to matter. Both ways have the potential to be good or bad. I just need to feel confident in my decision so I don't second-guess myself the rest of my life. I think that maybe talking things through with my Actual Dr may help out quite a bit.

I do hope they hurry along with the approval, though. If I'm going to be on the Lupron, I'd rather get it over with by summer. Did those of you who have taken it have a lot of lingering side effects?

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Mel - Yes, he's on several different vitamins, so it's just bright yellow.

Took my temp today, geez I can't even take one month off!

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Very quiet in here yesterday and today!! Step it up, I need something to help me pass the time

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LOL, Stephanie - Are you back at work?

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AFM - I tried to get some last night, just because I feel like it's been forever, and DH says "no we have to wait until Wednesday right?" I told him it would be ok if we got a head start, but he wasn't interested. Hopefully tonight, we'll get it on. Well that is after al-anon.

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stephanie - you need to update that ticker so we can keep track!!!

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Stephanie - I second Cassie, I'm doing the impatient dance over here!!!

Mary- I have been at work since Monday, taking it easy, but trying to keep busy. Did DH not want to BD because he wanted to save up his swimmers??

Well I got a ticker up . The 4 DT just means 4 day transfer= embie was 4 days old when transfered, so technically I'm 9 days post conception right now. It's kinda weird to think about it like that. I'll have to bug DH to scan the picture of what he likes to refer to as "the kids", they don't look like much, but it's kinda neat . I've been feeling pretty good, I was up a lot of the night last night because I wasn't feeling well (normal for me 1-2 times a month), so I'm exhausted today. I think I might poas sometime this weekend, but I'm up in the air about it. I just have to make sure I'm of the mentality that if it is BFN it may just be too early to test, and I won't let myself get upset until the official test next Wednesday.

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