Claire - where the heck is your AF? I see by your chart she should be here any minute!! I didn't like that the Answers expired either... I never got a good reading from them and always wondered if they expired before the month was up. I prefer the ones from Amazon (which are the same Early Pregancy Test ones that Lindy uses) since they're individually wrapped and dated.

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Irene- Thanks for checking on me! Oh, I'm sure AF will be here any minute now. Temp drop and all. I usually have about a 30daycycle so I might not be till tomorrow. There is no where else she could be, trust me, b/c I'm sure I won't have an immaculate conception. DH hasn't touched me with a 10' pole for more than a MONTH!

Well, for whatever reason, I had just decided that I had enough last night. Started feeling really down about the fact that we havn't BD-even for fun. I just know it has to be something wrong with me and my fat ass. And all I could think about is how he'll pull it together for some strained BD around O in a couple of weeks and there'll be no fun or meaning to it at all. So, he asked me what was wrong and I actually told him-flat out. I just layed it all out there about how crappy I feel b/c I get NO physical affection. Well, I don't know what the hell I expected him to say, but I guess I hoped it would be remorse and concearn and "omg, didn't realize I was neglecting you." Well, what I got was "so, I don't 'PUT OUT' enough for you?"
So, we had a long talk...ok, so I cried and he talked. Now I feel terrible. He says he's been stressed out and he's just not physically afffectionate. Well that's pure BS, b/c he was in the beginning of our relationship. And his explaination was that it should naturally go away as we get less insecure and that maybe he wasn't sure b/c I'm his longest relationship. Well, what I heard was: as long as I'm with a new girl every two months, it's fine.

So, needless to say, round and round we went. all he said was he would try. Which is good but he told me he's now afraid that "we won't make it" if his "try" isn't good enough . Damnit, I'm still so upset. Of course I'm not going to leave him over this, but I need him to CARE if I'm unhappy. KWIM? I dunno, I wanted to suggest going to a Dr. and see if his hormones are wonky or even counseling if we have to, but it was so emotional and traumatic that I knew it was not a good time to go there. Plus, he doesn't seem to think there is anything wrong with never wanting sex.

I just don't know . I'm not sure if it's a good wake up call for him to feel like he can lose me, or if it's a terrible thing to make him feel like our marriage isn't rock solid. I know that I'm now terrified that he'll leave me for me saying this. OMG, I'm sucha wreck right now. I WANT A SMOKE SOOOOO BAD!!! I don't know how to deal with this.

Sorry for the terribly long vent. I just don't know who else to talk to.

Sorry, Irene-I know you didn't expect that reaction to a simple question

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Claire - don't ever apologize for venting. Alot of us go through periods of doubt/uncertainty with our DHs and the extra stress of TTCing doesn't make it any easier. I tell you one thing though - its hard to compare the way someone acted in the beginning of a relationship with now because unfortunately it just changes. But at the same time, hopefully now that you pointed out how you feel, your DH will make more of an effort to bring back that spark. In my relationship, its the opposite and its usually me that is the sex "camel" and I have to work on making sure that I'm there for DH enough or he gets really grumpy.

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Irene~ I know you are right about comparing early relationship to now. Things change as the love grows deeper. We've been together almost 6yrs, our five year wedding anniversary is in Aug. thank you so much!

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Claire- Honey, I am sooooo sorry. I know how you feel. I have been there. I hope you don't smoke but if you do, I understand! I still really hope that you don't! I think that men are stupid sometimes, well sometimes a lot of the time. I will pray for you and your DH as well as bringing you guys closer together.

If anyone ever wants a sholder to cry on or someone to lend an ear. I don't work and I would love it if I could be an ear or a sholder for someone on here. If you will PM me I will send my number to you. Oh, and time will never be an issue! I gotta run for now. I have my spin class at noon! TTYL

Oh, Reign On Me: check back for an update this afternoon .

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Claire - if you're thinking he wants to move on after 2 months you've obviously made it well past that stage Its a constant effort becuase unfortunately life gets in the way... we all get busy with work, family, friends, etc. and sometimes you forget to take care of the person you love the most because you just take for granted that they'll always be there. But you shouldn't feel guilty for reminding DH every once in awhile! The only thing I would suggest though is that you take care to watch HOW you remind him because men get so damn defensive when they feel like they're being attacked or criticized in any way. Maybe a candlelight dinner is in order...

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Lindy-Thanks, hun! You are so sweet. Have fun at spin class! And no worries-I made it this far w/o a smoke, I'm not gonna cave. Now, the diet on the other hand......lol. Actually, so far, so good except for the gobstoppers I've been sucking on to deal with the cig cravings.

Irene~ I guess you're right. We've been together for a while, I guess it doesn't make much sense for him to bolt over this. Why are we women so weird sometimes? Boy you are right about them being defensive. I've tried to tell him this gently several times and I did relatively good last night. When we finally were going to bed, he did make an effort to cuddle with me and I apologized for all the trouble and he said "well, I guess I had it coming." Hmmm, Maybe I should at least make something special for dinner tonight. I just wish we could get flowers for men the way they can do for us! I can totally be bribed with flowers.

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Ok hopefully I don't start stalking the site. But I already love it here, and everyone is so nice and helpful! Again I wish I would of meet you all sooner.

Here are some of my answers, no I haven't track a whole cycle. CD? is like CD1 would be the day I start? But I'm close! I do know that my last cycle was 26 days. I also need to check with the test results from my DH test. Although I'm not sure if it even shows percentages. Our reg. Dr. told us to go see another doctor about how to increase it. I did a little research and have since thing changed his diet a bit. But didn't ever go see the specialist.

Although now after reading the preseed booklet that came with it. I'm thinking that the mucus had a lot to do with it. We are regular lube users, and would not use them, when I thought I was ovualting. Although I was clueless on when I was. I also had another theory last night, that maybe because I'm so long wasted that it has a long journey then a normal wasted women. I know now I'm going crazy.

Ok I better go, thanks to you all!

Oh the other question I had, so when I finally am able to track the temps. How will you all see them? Am I supposed to post it somewhere, or maybe I'll understand more tonight when I get on there and plug in the info.

And don't ya just hate this time? Like I used the preseed for the first time last night, now I'm already looking for any sign that I might be pregnant. URRRRGH!!!!

What a weirdo!

Mary - Ask your doctor for a copy of the SA report. They can't deny it.

When you get into FF, you will go into the 'sharing' section and create your homepage. From there, you will copy the url to 'your page' and paste it here in your profile. Then we can click on it and see it.

for instance, if you click on my user name, a drop box will appear. then you click on my 'homepage'. That will take you to my FF charts.

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http://rchiprean.abmp.com/index.html

Mary-Trust me, you aren't weird or crazy. Normal around here. And stalk away! We all do. CD= Cycle Day CD1= 1st day of AF (aunt flow). For us to stalk your chart, put in your FF page as your "homepage" on your profile here. Or, when you post a ticker, make sure it is linkable so if we click on it, we go to your FF. Play with it a bit, and if you still need help, let us know.

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Claire - don't forget that you're PMSing - everything is so much harder to deal with when the hag is coming around! I've found that sexy lingerie works for them even better than flowers work for us It sounds like he realizes that he's somewhat at fault and that he's willing to make an effort.

Mary - when you're in FF there's a button on the left called sharing - from there you choose home page setup. You can add any text you want and then copy the link for Your Charting Home Page Web Address into your profile here. Or if you use an FF ticker (from the Tools section of FF) in your signature here, we can click right from there.

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Irene- No Doubt. PMS=unhappy hubby! I can't wear lingerie, I'm a fatty!. Trust me, no one has ever wanted to see shamu in black lace! But DH has told me he likes a t-shirt/undie look.....I just get so embarrassed doing that!

See, I should just not offer help to newbies with the computer! Ya'll make way more sense than me!

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Irene~I am definately going to tell the nurse tomorrow that I want copies of all the b/w i've had done and DH s/a. I know DH will have to redo the s/a soon. I was just putting it off cause I think there is more problems with me. When I did it about 4 months ago, his volume was low. It was within range, but on the low end. So we'll see. I am going to purchase those instead cups. Do you use preseed too? We aren't supposed to have to go through all this trouble to have a baby!!!

Claire~You didn't alarm me...don't worry. My prolactin level was high the first time I had it checked and she rechecked it in like 2 weeks. It went down, but still on the high end. That DHEA level that was checked was sky high, she didn't tell me anything about it. Just that it could be the cause for the breakthrough bleeding. So I went on dex and have been on it since Dec. She just rechecked it to see if it went down. Thats what i'll get tomorrow from her. I really hope its went down. I bet it has, but I also think it still needs to go down more.

AF is on her way in I can tell. The spotting is turning to red and I have to wear a pad. O'well. Sooner she's here...sooner I start something else! Everyday puts me closer to my BFP's right???

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Ok so I think I almost have this figured out, and when you guys get tired of seeing my numerous post. You can tell me to relax a bit.

So if my cycle is let's say 25-26 days, when should I ovulate?
Like day 5-7?

How do you react when you find out that someone, a friend or co-worker is pregnant? Even if they know your trying? My response is usually, I'm so jealous! My DH did not like that response that I just recently gave to one of his co-workers. I'm sure this is normal for a guy to feel maybe insecure about it. But I am jealous. But maybe I shouldn't have said that?

Also I think I have the results of DH's s/a at home. I'll try to look for it tonight. Do you think I should go ahead and make him that appointment?

When I went to the Dr. DH was thinking the Dr. was going to either pass or fail me. And when that wasn't the case, he got a little frusterated. And he probably wouldn't be thrilled if he knew I have our picture posted.

I mean it is what it is, we are having trouble concieving, doesn't mean we can't talk about it right?

I'm pretty stoked about going home and pluging in my temps. Wonderful, a new website to try to figure out! I'm sure I'll be back today!

bye bye

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Mary- I am so glad that you are happy here. I know I love it here. Don't worry about what DH thinks about you posting pictures. I am glad you are going to do the temping. This is just my opinion some of the other girls may be able to help you better than I can but I would start your OPK's the day after AF is gone. Once you get a positive BD as often as possible. Be sure that you take your temp either orally or vaginally but stick w/ that for the month. Then be sure you take it at the same time everyday. That will give you the best way of knowing when you O for sure. So, if you don't get PG this month you will be able to have a better idea when to start using OPK's for the next cycle. I guess that will be a starter for you. As for your numbers I think we all want to see numbers!

Claire-I am so proud of you for not picking up a cigarette. I do have a suggestion when you get that craving to smoke put a pencil between the fingers you hold a cigarette in. I hear that that is half of the battle when quiting. I know it was for my mom. On, the weight loss keep up the good work. You will get better, don't make me kick you in the rump ! Come on, we need to kick some fat butt! Don't forget my motto, tape it to your mirror everyday!

Irene-I will be posting more movie reviews later this evening. If there is a movie you want to see let me know and I will rent it and tell you what I think. Well, if I haven't already seen it yet!

Rebecca- Is the IUI next week? Or was it today? I hate not being able to remember anything. Oh, well I will go stalk your chart and see!

Deanna- Don't be frustrated. Your time to have a baby will come. I was really bummed to quit TTC since I got diagnosed with diabetes last week. I will keep you in my prayers and I hope that you get results soon, maybe that will help you to ease your mind.

Ashley- I am praying for you.

Bina- I love what you have to say! You don't have to stay in the other side. We do love you here. I understand though.

I am starving so I am going to cook dinner now!

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hi guys, of course I have already entered temps at FF, and although I haven't even done it for a month. I'm testing to see if I know what I'm doing or not.

And now I wondering can you O two days before AF? My temp did rise right before then.

Ok we'll see if this works!

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