Steph ~ Um...wha....uh...did she live in Australia? Where did she get kangaroo scrotum? And did she announce in her letter, "Dear Stephanie ~ You suck. Here's some kangaroo scrotum!" ROFLMAO!!!

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It was a HE and I don't even remember. It was a real bag, eeeuuugh. One of my PITA posters (pain in the a$$). I actually went on the site no too long ago and he asked me if I still had it. Um...NOOOOO!

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I will be SO glad when this day is over. I told Joe earlier that I'm coming home and not doing anything or going anywhere, so if he wants something to eat for dinner tonight, he better go get it or order it.

I don't think I've smiled once today. Pretty sad. I really do feel bad for Joe. I'm such a mess that I don't think I'm being a very good fiance. I yelled at him for pretty much no reason last night, just because I'm so angry about all of this.

I'm seriously thinking when I go in to see the doctor for blood work for my blood sugar on the 18th, I'm going to talk to him about some kind of anti depressant or something......my emotions are all over the place, and I know it's not healthy. I get so irritated so easily, and that CAN'T be good..... Hell, who's emotions wouldn't be all over the place with 3 miscarriages in a year? *sigh* I just want to be normal....................

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Jen- sorry you're having a rough day. <<<HUGS!>>>

Steph- LOL at kangaroo scrotum! Great idea about the open house baby showers....just drop off the gift and get the hell out! Ha!
Oops....can I even say "hell" on CT?

Irene- I hear ya girlfriend. I often think I should really be posting on the IF thread since I'm really way past the initial TTC phase....

Mel- too bad you can't get out of going to Vegas. It's of course not such a bad place to HAVE to be, but I just hate it when I have to grin and bear it and be somewhere when I really don't wanna be. At least you'll have plenty of opportunities to get plastered!

Claire- as for deadlines...I just hope and pray I'm PG by December or else I'm gonna be...I don't even know what! I guess that's kinda my deadline...I need a blinkie that says....Santa better bring me a BFP or I'm gonna kick his a$$! Ha...just kidding, I would never hurt Santa!

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Becky- Oh, if I could catch the mofo I'd hurt Santa in a heartbeat....and anyother fairy tale creature who could help me with a BFP!

Steph- Oh, I wasn't too worried about it. Just annoyed. ROFLMAO at someone pulling voodoo on you with a kangaroo nutsack. I mean, of all the animals.....

Mel- Bummer that you can't get out of the trip. Well, I advise staying very, very, sloshed then. Vegas is the kinda town you don't need to drive in, so I say don't even bother to sober up while you are there.

Jen- Atta girl. Go home and veg. I'm sure joe can fend for himself for dinner. And I know you feel bad for getting after him, but I've found that DH doesn't mind it as much when I apologize and tell him point blank that I'm a bit nuts. Don't beat yourself up too bad-you have a LOT on your plate right now. Planning a wedding and dealing with 3 m/c. {{hugs}}

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Steph -- I agree with Claire - that guy is NUTS

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Steph ~ OMG, a HE! Oh geez. Did HE live in Australia? I just don't understand out of all the animals, why a kangaroo? LOL, I don't get it.

Jen ~ You've got a great guy and I'm sure he understands, how could he not? You take the time you need to heal.

Referring to the timeline originally brought up by Irene. I think I would be thoroughly heartbroken if getting a baby in 2009 went out the window. I just remember my heart sinking when my last chance for a 2008 baby went out with the arrival of AF, it just felt like I had been trying a long time then, what is it going to feel like, when if I should get to 2010? I was hoping to have #2 in 2010! And not only that but we are saving for a big trip in 2010 to South Africa for the world cup and we would definitely have to put TTC on hold for I'd say, maybe, at least 3 months. ugh. Okay, those were ugly thoughts. I'm going to stop now.

Thanks girls, I thoroughly plan on getting and remaining sloshed. Problem with Vegas is I've had a lot of drunken drama occur there in the past. I just don't want it to get ugly.

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I love my soon to be husband. He really is a wonderful wonderful man. I got home from work, said hello to him, checked my email, and laid down on the couch. I ended up falling asleep....I guess the 3 hours I got last night just wasn't enough...hmm...imagine that....lol

I woke up at about 9 to him turning on the light in the living room and saying, "come decide what you want for dinner." I came into the office, and he had a menu for Garner's Pizza and Wings (like the BEST place to get wings from around here) and that's what he ordered us. Totally awesome. Even though I only ate 3 wings and a handful of fries, and am now full.*rolls eyes*

That's the thing....when I get depressed, I can't eat....even my favorite foods. But that's ok.....I need to lose like 100 pounds anyway.

**thinks to self.....I wonder if being fat is keeping me from carrying........**

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Just e-mailed my friends and family this...

Hello All! I know it has been awhile since updating you on our babies, they've been pretty low key. But tonight, Binx shocked the both of us. Let me set up the scenario...
I'm downstairs enjoying an episode of Baby Borrowers and David was upstairs watching The Bourne Identity (I know, critical pieces of information there). For those of you who have never been to our house, when the cats are outside, we leave the sliding glass door ajar and there is a hole in the screen door that the cats can come in and out through. Well, Binx walked in with something big and black in his mouth. At first, I thought it was a baby bird, which is his most common prey. I shouted to David, "Binx has a bird!" and then I heard the squeaking and it didn't sound like a bird...I got flashbacks of my ecology classes and conservation biology classes in college, when we would go out at dusk to watch the flight of bats...and I knew...O....M....F....G. IT'S A BAT! And I screamed, "BAT!" grabbed the couch pillow and ran into the kitchen as Binx opened his mouth and the bat flew out. Luckily, the bat flew away from me but toward where I was sitting on the couch and onto our accent chair. Tabitha and Binx were both in a tizzy. I had to lock Binx in the bathroom while David got a tuperware container and covered the bat. He wasn't sure what to put under the container to keep the bat inside and I told him that I had a piece of cardboard that I use to fold my shirts above the washer he could use. Now, don't laugh when you see the pictures, but I labeled the cardboard, "Mel's Folding Board" as to remind David not to throw it away, sounds dumb but when I worked at Miller's Outpost back in the day, that's how we folded shirts! So, David picked up the container high enough for me to snap a couple of pictures. We tried to get another one outside as we released him but he was too fast. So, that's our adventure in a nutshell.

Until next time, be safe and good night!

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Holy Lord! I would have screamed. I am not a big fan of bats. This year I seemed to have rodent trouble too. At school, I brought my new tote bag and left it on the floor. In my bag I had an orange. Long story short, a mouse climbed in my bag ate my orange and then ate its way throught the bag. The hole was huge! I cried.

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Mel - OMG, Ewwwww, you would of had to lock me in the bathroom too! IMO, I would go to Vegas have a good time, get drunk but don't get to the point of losing it over TTC, I only say that since my drunken mess on Tuesday. And I'm still laughing at Mel's folding board. I so need one of those, and I would so have to write Mary's folding board too! DH has thrown out two vacuum filters in the last six months.

ALL - I guess I haven't had to go to a baby shower in a while, but right now I don't think it would be a problem for me to go. I still love thinking about baby's and looking at all the small cute stuff. Sure I might shed a few tears afterwords but I hope that I could contain myself while I was there.

Man there was a lot to read, and I might have to take Mel suggestion on typing it out on word while you read. I had wondered if that's how you all did it before anyways.

OK well I talked to my nurse Sharon yesterday, and she brought up some options. She was going to talk to my Dr and get back to me this morning. She mentioned getting the HSG done. She also mentioned that most insurance companies don't cover it. $800-$1000 I need to call my insurance and find out what if any they would cover. I think me and DH kind of decided that we might just keep trying for a few more months, with the vitamins and good timing, and see where that gets us, and try not to put too much pressure on it. I was also trying to think deadline, and it just made it more depressing for me. And then if still nothing go in for the HSG. What do you guys think?

One of my close gf, tried for a couple years Dr told her it was unexplained IF, she had been on clomid and a few other ones and nothing. The third month after they quit trying she got pg. I sometimes wonder if that would be the case with us, but then again we did try that for a over a year. But I was thinking about it the whole time to. Maybe if I just convince myself that there is no way on this earth that I'm ever going to get pg, then it will happen. Ok talk about novel. Just these scenarios and thoughts go through my head and it's hard to process it all.

Can you tell I've been busy at work, I miss chating with you all!

Come on AF please get outta here, I have a wedding this weekend, I don't want to deal with tampons!!!!

And wait one more thing, I finally used my bbt today! I had thought I already lost it, and had to temp with my old one yesterday.

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Happy Friday everyone!!

Jen-what a great Dh-to-be you have. I know my Dh and I got even closer during the m/c and it just made me realize all the more what a great guy he is.

Mary-how many cycles have you been on clomid? A lot of the girls here have had an HSG, so can give you better advice on that but I would go for it if the clomid doesn't work and insurance covers it!

Mel-OMG what a story!! BTW also funny seeing Cap'n referred to by his name. I forgot, but is the bachelorette party this weekend? For my bachelorette party (almost 9 years ago) we went to vegas. One of the girls from that group is getting married this summer and now they are all going BOWLING for the bachelorette party. Dh was laughing abougt it, and I told him that is a sign of how old we are all getting, lol.

Irene-I hope you are feeling better this morning and that you make it through tonight ok.


Well I found out the reason why I've been waking up feeling hot and my temps are so dang high (especially with AF on her way)! Dh turned the thermostat up some time last week (he doesn't remember when of course) by 2 degrees!! Unless I can figure out this new temp pattern, I will probably start OPKs next cycle then since even though we won't be TTC I will be back on progesterone. I guess OPKs are cheaper than a high electricity bill.

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Good morning everyone.

AF is pretty much gone...really weird. It basically stopped yesterday afternoon. I checked my cervix this morning, and it was medium, soft, closed. Has anyone here had an AF that lasted about a day and a half??

Nothing else really to report, other than I'm glad it's Friday! DH has the weekend off, so we are going to have a 'date' day Saturday... which consists of running errands, grabbing lunch, and going to an afternoon movie.

Mel - Wow... that's a first! lol. Cats are so funny... they are soooo proud of themselves when they get to show their people what they can do. lol. The other day one of the barn cats caught a mouse, and kept putting it next to my shoe and meowing. I'd lean down, 'praise' her, and walk off. She would pick it up, and do the same thing. I couldn't stop laughing.

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Mare - last cycle my flow lasted basically 1 day and then I just had light spotting for several more. From what I hear, clomid can do that to you - I think Rebecca mentioned that her AF was really short last cycle. I am a little surprised that its not heavier though since you did have a chemical pg. I do the same thing with minimizing CT - I'm an addict too

Steph - how the heck did you know it was kangaroo scrotum? I think if someone sent me that in the mail I would have a hard time identifying it LOL! And I can't believe you didn't keep it

Mel - At least no one will be talking about it since its a big hush hush secret until the rehearsal dinner. I would be hesitant to get too drunk though... I know that whatever emotion I'm feeling gets so intensified when I drink so when I'm down it turns into unstoppable crying... I doubt you want that to happen. Either that or you could say things that you'll regret (like the time I called DH a jackass ) I hate bats!!! I remember once in college we had one fly into the house - they're actually really small but they're so fast and they fly right at your head... scary little buggers!!!

Jen - Thank goodness for J... I'm glad he took care of you and I hope you're feeling better after getting some sleep. I wish I couldn't eat when I was depressed... I have the opposite problem. I will repeat to you what we have been telling Mel - I think that being overweight can prevent you from ovulating but since thats not your problem I don't think it has anything to do with your miscarriages.

Mary - I will be interested in seeing your next cycle. I know your progesterone came back normal but you do still have a fairly short LP which the HSG will do nothing to explain. Its so frustrating how doctors don't always seem to know whats going on either... I do recommend getting the HSG done though because it is one more thing to not worry about. I hope your insurance covers it.

Bina - I still have to get through tonight and we'll see how it goes... I think it will be okay. Of course I didnt' sleep well last night and part of that is because my mind tends to race and I practice conversations in my head LOL!

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Mare - I'm surprised that your doctor put you on clomid before having the hsg. I thought the hsg was standard testing. You should definintely have it. My first clomid AF was much shorter, but I'm wondering if it was because the first day was so heavy and clotty (which is not normal for me). I sometimes even wonder if I had a chemical that month because the clot was about the size of texas. Well, I guess I'll never know, but regardless, I think that's possibly why my bleeding was so strange that month.

Bina - A couple weeks ago, it got pretty chilly here. I had the thermostat set at about 65 (we don't have central air). Well, I woke up one morning sweating my butt off. Went downstairs and realized the furnace was on and OMG dh jacked the thing up to 78! I about died! Of course, he didn't realize that it was THAT high.

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