Betsy - Yes ma'am, that was it! How am I - I'm not sure. I honestly think I am at the end of my ttc rope. It's just been too damn long and I don't know how much more I can do. The good thing is that I'm not angry anymore, but I am still sad. I can't help but wonder why my baby wasn't allowed to have a good life that dh and I would have been able to give. I couldn't even read the poem that Emily posted.
I'll continue with the testing, providing that it is covered by my insurance. I would try clomid and even iui if it came to that, but I wouldn't keep on for months and months........maybe till the end of the summer - that's 6 more months.
Steph - It's not so much about other people's expectations. I think it's more about my expectations and how things just aren't working out as I had hoped and dreamed. My expectations just aren't what they used to be.
Lauren - Thanks for the info. I'm not sure I want to do a lap now..... yikes!
Ya know, he didn't even offer a script for clomid! Although, I didn't ask, either.
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