Hi Ladies – Well DH was not surprised by the results at all. As many of you know it’s what he expected all along. He was actually excited he had some swimmers at all. He’s not concerned at all. This honestly just infuriated me. Luckily he went to school after we talked so I was able to do more crying & reflecting on my own. The only thing I can think of changing is switching him from briefs to boxers and cutting his caffeine. Everything else he already does. He’s on FB, he doesn’t drink or smoke, he eats really well,lots of veggies & fruits. The only bad thing is his job & that we can’t change.

This morning on my drive into work I was feeling really positive. Thinking it only takes one. We will be fine. Then 30 minutes later I was thinking it’s hopeless. Not going to happen. Why bother charting? Why bother doing anything. A part of me is relieved it’s “not me” although technically we still don’t know that since I haven’t been tested for anything. And then another part of me would have preferred it was “me” since I have more control over my body.

I’m having a harder time accepting this than I expected. I really thought I would be over it by this morning. The worst part I couldn’t even be with him intimately last night & luckily he didn’t try too hard. I’m still waiting for my OB/GYN to call me to see what our next step is. Since DH doesn’t have insurance I just plan on calling RE’s on my own and see where we go from there. Can’t wait to see the price tag on that.

Thanks for all your words ladies. We all have our own demons to fight but at least we can do it together.

<hugs right back atcha>

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