So today was one of those days that as a ttcer - I HATE

I had to go to my cousin's baby's christening. It is so painful to sit and watch everyone run around with their babies, and instead I am running round taking care of my grandfather.

But besides that - today I experienced something new. The women in my family that were there know that we have been trying for a long time. But this time - no one asked how we were doing with ttc or what was going on with it. No one asked anything - as a matter of fact - i sort of felt avoided. And that upset me. (why don't the care how much pain i am in? do they realize I am in pain? do they realize how painful it is just to be there? and then no one ask - How are you? )

most times, I am upset with insensitve comments like "just relax" or "it is in God's hands" but today I was upset because no one acknowledged me

Now don't get me wrong - I am not looking for everyone to feel sorry for me -- that is the last thing I want (I already feel sorry for myself enough on occassions like today ) but I guess I would like to feel acknowledged or for someone to say "if you need to talk"

Sorry for the vent - but I have never been upset before because no one asked - I guess today was different because I was prepared today to answer questions (without crying) - and no one even cared enough.

kristen

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