I just want to thank you for your thoughts. And for not suggesting I wear a scarlet letter. I really feel bad about the whole situation and I know I should have never gotten into it to begin with.

I talked to DH (leaving out the co-worker, at your advice) and discussed how tired I was of TTC. He told me he'd do what ever I wanted, so I think a break is coming soon for us.

Now the "cut all ties" will be difficult. Unfortunatley this guy is someone I must work closely with. I will try to keep things business related only and cut off conversations that go anywhere else. I do have to admit that even right now I heart skips a beat thinking of him. This is going to be hard for me to get over, but I know I have to.

And please don't think he's a bad person either. He and his wife are TTC also, and that's where we started connecting. It's very possible he's looking for that same spark I am.

Again, thanks for listening. I can always count on all of you to help when I have problems.

And Kia - thanks for taking it a little ligher.

Sarah - thanks for sharing your story. I'm glad I'm not the only one who has had a near-miss.