loss of passion...dangerous grounds
I wanted to put this in the relationship thread, but it wouldn't let me post without signing in overthere, so please bear with me since I'm off topic here.
I am a regular poster here, but this topic is so embarrassing and sensitive, I wanted to get help without people knowing who I was. Again, sorry.
Since TTC, DH and I have lost all of the passion in our lives. I feel like a machine, and I know he does too. I get to the point where I just don't want to BD anymore.
Then this past week at work, a co-worker has started flirting with me. It was so exciting and it just sent chills down my spine. I found myself thinking things I know I shouldn't. For the first time in my many year realtionship I honestly think I could cheat. I feel so horrid. I love my Dh and there is nothing wrong in our marraige, I just want that spark this other guy is offering so bad.
I can tell you with 100% honesty that nothing happened with this guy. I wanted it and I know he did too (he flat told me), but I kept my head and walked away.
This has really turned my world upside down. I don't know what to do.
I'm not going to go after the co-worker, I know that my happy marraige is at stake, and one moment of passion just isn't worth it.
But it has made me wonder if I need to keep TTC. Should I stop? Should I tell DH? Should I think about counceling (alone or with DH)?
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