Kristen- a 90' turn!?!?!? Wow, that sounds really rough! I really like the phrase you say to yourself. I'm going to write that down and keep it on my calendar (so that as I watch the days and months go by, I can remind myself!)
I was out with a friend yesterday and venting to her about ttc. She is actually the only friend that is actually good to talk to about this stuff! (Most others try to be supportive but instead say the annoying things.) I told her about how I always knew, and I've always been interested in adoption. She flat out said exactly what I've thought: that maybe God was telling me early for a reason.
Still, as conflicted as I am over it, we are going to try the IVF if IUI is not successful. I just couldn't stand always wondering; I'd feel like I gave up without trying everything.

Hopefully this IUI will have worked for you. Then you won't have to worry about going any further! Best wishes!

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