So last night before DH goes to school we start talking about the next few weekends. This weekend he has a side painting job and next weekend too. So conversation goes like this:

Me: I called Lily today to confirm and she got the paint and stuff.
DH: Oh good, you are going to come with me and help right?
Me: well not sure, I’m going to test Saturday morning and if it’s positive then no I won’t go.
DH Test for what?
Me: To see if I’m pregnant.
DH: But you don’t get AF until next Friday.
Me: I know but sometimes you can find out early.
DH: Well you aren’t going to be pregnant so don’t worry about it.
Me: Uhhhhh. You don’t know that.
DH: Yeah I do.
Me: how?
DH: Cause I’m sterile Bets, I don’t think I can get you pregnant.
Me: Do you know that for a fact has a doctor told you that?
DH: No, I just know it. I feel it.
Me: (trying to not get pissed) Well we won’t know until we start going through the testing phase.
DH: It’s okay I love Jonathan like he’s my own son anyway.
Me: (trying really hard not to be more pissed) We haven’t been trying very long, I’m seeing the doctor next week and we’ll take it from there.
DH: okay, but I try not to get my hopes up, I feel like I disappoint you each month.

So I end conversation. DH goes to school…when we are settling in for the evening, I told him I never wanted him to say that again, that I needed him to think positive about everything that I can’t feel like I’m alone in this. All he said was okay and burrowed his head in my lap. Broke my heart.

How do your husband’s deal with the month in/month out ups and downs.



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