I’m a big emotional wreck right now…Would it be normal to click on PMS symptoms on FF when I haven’t even ovulated yet??? Wasn’t sure where to post it…so since my poor DH is probably the one who gets to pay for it, figured I’d put it under relationships.

Yesterday I cried all the way home (40 min drive) – thinking about when I told my ex H that I was pregnant 10 years ago his response was “are you keeping it?”. Note we had been married 2 years and he was aware I had gotten off the pill, but we were going to wait a year before trying. And we were surprised right away. He made my pregnancy miserable. Although the second my DS was born they have been inseparable and he loves and worships his child. But still the most important moment in my life and he ruined it!!!!! So I started panicking…what if even though this whole TTC process was started by new DH, what if he changed his mind the moment I told him? I would be devastated.

Then last night the heat was unbearable so we slept downstairs where it was cooler. DH didn’t hold me all night, when usually we are spooned up against each other. This morning after I took my temperature I started crying again. DH woke up and I told him why. He felt so bad, didn’t even notice. Gave me lots of hugs and kisses and I was better.

Well now I am at work, supposed to be off Friday & Monday. My client just e-mailed me and said a project is coming in at 2….which means I may have to cancel my vacation day.

Then once I stopped being emotional about that, I get a text from DH that says “Thank you for being in my life”. Then I started to officially bawl at my desk.

Urg!!!!!!!!!!!! Help me!!



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