Kerrie- we are in kind of the same situation. We "offically" have been ttc for 15 months. In reality, though, we were not using any protection (besides pulling out), well, for years, actually. So I know how you feel when the reality of how long it has truly been hits.
And I thought it was interesting how you said "I know the problem is me". I have felt the same way. In fact, all my life I have always felt that I would have trouble conceiving. There was nothing in family history or in my past to make me feel that way, but I have always known for some reason. It's just really wierd for it to be coming true.

Anyway, just wanted to let you know that you are not alone! Good luck with the tests; at least they may give you some answers!

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