Yeah Cassie...I considered that. Soonest appt. I could get with my doc is May 12th...which seems too far away...but he's the best doctor I've ever been to...so I refuse to change doctors to get a sooner appt.

Wendy...I don't expect him, nor do I want him to leave his wife and come back to me. He told me over and over again he would marry me if I was pregnant...BUT...I doubt I would marry him now if he begged me.

I was raised by a single mother, and I turned out fine. She had a lot of support and I know I will too.

As far as my feelings on this...like I said...I still can't believe it. I want my baby...I pray nothing is wrong and that everything works out. I'm happy and confident that I can do this with the support of my family and friends.

As far as Billy goes....I wish him luck in his marriage and in his life. I wish him luck with a lawyer too...because I will go after his a** full force! My lawyer is one of the best in the state....so he better watch out.

I did talk to the nurse when I called...she told me that unless I started bleeding red and heavier and started having cramps that the 12th is the soonest they can fit me in. Otherwise, go to the ER or in to the office for an emergency visit.

A lot of what I'm feeling is dislike for him as well....he knew what he was doing....trying to get someone pregnant when he was married to someone else. All I knew was that I was trying to have a baby with the man I love and thought I was going to marry.

He will get his though.

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