I'm sorry, didn't mean to send you to a place where you are lost. But thank you for sharing that. Wow, you really HAVE been through hell.

You said you weren't clear on my theory. My theory is, once addicted to smoking, one always will be. It's just weather or not they are smoking at any given time. No different than an alchoholic or a crack head. I freely admit that I KNOW I will return to smoking if some major turmoil happens.....but, I don't think that would happen if I wasn't a 'smoker'. TONS of people survive turmoil daily who don't turn to smoking to cope. That's all. Not sure if it makes sense or not. It's just that at it's base level, I realize that the smoking did not make anything go away. It didn't fix my problems or make them better. But there were (and I think will still be) times in my life where I did not think I would continue to BREATHE if that air didn't contain some nicotine.......of course, once on the patch I found that it wasn't the nicotine I was addicted to.

OK, so I just realized I should have PM'd this . Sorry, weight loss buddies! I was originally hoping there would just be someone else who thought thier relationship with food was like an addiction, too.

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