I don't know how anyone who's ever gone through IF could 'not want this thing'. Can't even imagine. I wanted a fairy tale, but I'm not going to get it. I still want/would want my kids though, no matter how they got here...I'd be good enough for them.

Started trying to talk to another friend yesterday about everything...and again ended up frustrated and feeling worse like no one could understand me. She has one child (11yrs), and had an abortion before that when we were younger (she was about 19 or 20 if I remember). And she just couldn't begin to grasp...how could she, I guess. But it doesn't make it less lonely.

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